So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
It ain't fading
Man, I gotta let it out
Am I quitting, screaming
Nothing ever comes out
I keep feeling lost
I'll never find my way out
I'm not thanking them
Unless the truth can pour out
Give me some courage
Beating me down now for sometime
Are you laughing, am I funny?
I hate and slide
I'll hate and slide
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
My heart is breaking
Man, you really ripped it out
You take pleasure watching as I claw my way out
The hurt's rising
Soon it's going to tear my soul out
It’s not kosher feeling like I’m on my way out
Give me some courage
Beating me down now for sometime
Are you laughing, am I funny?
I hate and slide
I'll hate and slide
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Feeling the haze as they cut down my spine
Peeling your flesh like the way you've cut mine
Do you feel happy you fucked up my mind?
You’re going to pay this time
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Man, I gotta let it out
Am I quitting, screaming
Nothing ever comes out
I keep feeling lost
I'll never find my way out
I'm not thanking them
Unless the truth can pour out
Give me some courage
Beating me down now for sometime
Are you laughing, am I funny?
I hate and slide
I'll hate and slide
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
My heart is breaking
Man, you really ripped it out
You take pleasure watching as I claw my way out
The hurt's rising
Soon it's going to tear my soul out
It’s not kosher feeling like I’m on my way out
Give me some courage
Beating me down now for sometime
Are you laughing, am I funny?
I hate and slide
I'll hate and slide
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Feeling the haze as they cut down my spine
Peeling your flesh like the way you've cut mine
Do you feel happy you fucked up my mind?
You’re going to pay this time
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
I'll take this time
To let out what’s inside
Cause I will break
Sometimes I wish you'd die
Full of sorrow
You raped and stole my pride
And all this hate is bottled up inside
Lyrics submitted by a scar in the sky, edited by Ha1cy0n
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Well, I believe the correct lyrics are "Are you laughing, am I funny?" but whatever. It's about the dangers of keeping all your feelings inside, you gotta let it out or you'll break down.