Distant

This was the song that I was listening to the last time I tried to commit suicide. I won't get into details, but basically I had crossed the Rubicon - I was a mouse, backed into a corner by a cat named Regret, and at that final measure I turned and bared my fangs at all that would oppose me - what I would become, the waste my life would be - in order to make good my most final decision. Though fortune may guide the fools - and thus the yearning for conscience of something or nothing after death does make cowards of us all - I wished nothing more to be free from everything. Free from the world, from those around me, and most importantly, from my own self and the hatred for myself I fight to keep still even today.

This is another one of my big vnv favs.. Beautiful

I don't know why this song Reminds me of Julius Caesar... But it does :/

The paths that I once tread Have all but gone Only embers now smoulder Where bridges once burned - There was a Riot when Julius Caesar died. PEople went nuts too kill the Conspiraters.

I feel alive and yet I fear What may happen now I know I can't return - Outcasted by Rome, the Conspiraters flee, no longer fearfull of Julius Caesar's Tyrany.

And I hear me say again 'Oh let me not return' Damn the illusions of redemption And the hopes that held me here I will oppose all that would befall me With this rage inside of me I'll defy what I would become

Brutus feels as if Julius Caesar didn't actually have to die... The "Illusions of Redemption" Would be Caesar's Ghost.

This solitude and anger That do battle inside of me Will always guide me to the answers That I know I may not see They are the bonds that hold me tighter They are the chains that weigh on me One day, I know they will become - Brutus, became a Victim, of what he did the second his Wife, died, because of what he did. She "Swollowed Fire". He may have been emotionless on the outside, but on the inside, he was ripped apart.

Can I start again And erase this pain By casting doubts into the waters Asking judgement of the sea - The big fight where ALOT of people Died... Cassius and Brutus included.

Though fortune, you guide the fools I have no wish to be free Until I am gone - Brutus, and the Conspirators fought for a cause, and that cause brought them down till the very last. It was a strong play as this is a Strong Song.

Wow.. that last post did a great job at killing conversation. I believe the first post hit this on the head of the nail

erm.. I got that reversed.. the one who hit the head on the nail is Davegeta

No it wasnt nailed...to anything. You may put whatever names instead - God vs Satan, Hitler vs Jews and blah blah blah.

This is a song about a person who had stepped one more step over the line past which there is no return. Apparently there are regrets about taking that step. The person is trying to find the strength within to go on and stay the chosen course.

This song is Caesar controlling his destiny through deliberate willpower alone. Pretty neat.

VNV NATION "SONG MEANINGS" INSIDE 15 page interview with Ronan Harris.

http://dancemusic.about.com/od/artistshomepages/a/VnVNationInt.htm

Yeah, this song is definitely about regret and the temptation that follows when we try to correct it. But we can't...we can't return and inner conflict ensues until we find a way to break away from it. Until we are free.