So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Sometimes I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
Wish I could feel no pain
Wish I was young
Wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
Wish I was you, not I
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over
I wish I was stronger
Wish I could feel no pain
Wish I was young
Wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
Wish I was you, not I
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Sometimes I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
'Cause I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so callous
So lost, confused again
Feel so cheep
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over
Lyrics submitted by ShortMan, edited by MusicfanSilver, etiennebold
I Feel So Lyrics as written by Tom Delonge Travis Barker
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I think Tom DeLonge is actually a 12 year old girl at heart. Or maybe he's just copying out fo his little sister's diary. Either way, this is some of the most badly written shit I've ever heard. =D!