Like a lot of the other comments are saying, I think this mainly about voyeurism. If the song was about his girlfriend, then why would he use the word spy. If you are a spy it means you shouldn't be caught, that is kind of the whole point, and if you are a voyeur, the whole point of the pleasure you get from it, is the fact that the other people don't know you are watching them. See a bit of a connection there?
60 watts, brighter than my future,
an empty forty, fuller than my life,
there must be more, sometimes i don't think so,
maybe i'm right. maybe there's no such thing as a brighter side
A sultry night stare at moons from rooftops,
A broken engine, poisoned never dry,
I pour my heart out to a god that doesn't listen,
You said you'd save me. You said you'd love me always but you lied.
And i can't dry my eyes and there is nothing left inside,
one day. the day. the day that i said i,
my heart inside was cold so that you didn't know,
so all and you, you won't love me at all,
the leaves come down,
there is no sound,
and if i fall would you notice at all?
the thought of me repulses me,
but you'd say you took me anyway,
i am so alone on a corroded city rooftop,
i saw you walking, you didn't say anything,
you always told me that you'd never stop loving me,
but you stopped before you started and now all i have is lies.
What am i gonna be?
Who am i gonna be?
afraid,
repressed,
And now that i feel lost,
Well i wish that you had grown
while i bleed all alone,
the falling rain
is what is left for me
We’re gonna be
what's left for me
what is there to learn?
there is less than nothing,
i thought you'd be. be there for me
you weren't there. you weren't anywhere.
You lied right to my face
you broke my fucking heart,
One day, one day you tore my heart apart.
And i have nothing,
And i am nothing,
i’m piss,
i’m shit,
i am less than nothing.
an empty forty, fuller than my life,
there must be more, sometimes i don't think so,
maybe i'm right. maybe there's no such thing as a brighter side
A sultry night stare at moons from rooftops,
A broken engine, poisoned never dry,
I pour my heart out to a god that doesn't listen,
You said you'd save me. You said you'd love me always but you lied.
And i can't dry my eyes and there is nothing left inside,
one day. the day. the day that i said i,
my heart inside was cold so that you didn't know,
so all and you, you won't love me at all,
the leaves come down,
there is no sound,
and if i fall would you notice at all?
the thought of me repulses me,
but you'd say you took me anyway,
i am so alone on a corroded city rooftop,
i saw you walking, you didn't say anything,
you always told me that you'd never stop loving me,
but you stopped before you started and now all i have is lies.
What am i gonna be?
Who am i gonna be?
afraid,
repressed,
And now that i feel lost,
Well i wish that you had grown
while i bleed all alone,
the falling rain
is what is left for me
We’re gonna be
what's left for me
what is there to learn?
there is less than nothing,
i thought you'd be. be there for me
you weren't there. you weren't anywhere.
You lied right to my face
you broke my fucking heart,
One day, one day you tore my heart apart.
And i have nothing,
And i am nothing,
i’m piss,
i’m shit,
i am less than nothing.
Lyrics submitted by wako
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the music isn't that sad but the tempo makes it sadder. these are the most heartbreaking words i hate myself ever wrote in my opinion. i just cried so hard while listening to this.
greatest song ever. u must listen 2 it. so emotional. i love it. this is the type of song that grows on you...
this an amazing song made by an amazing band, about a guy who gets his heart broken and it destroys everything that he holds dear
i think its not that he gets his heart broken by a girl, but that he is giving up on god and religion because he finally understands that the whole idea is shit and so on and so forth . . .
yeah i always thought it was about how religions a joke..."i pour my heart out to a God that doesn't listen/ you said you'd save me/ you said you'd love me always but you lied."...but thats just my opinion.. anyways i like this song. the last 8 lines are my fave.
i hate myself was an amazing band! thats all that needs to be said. I don't know a bad I hate myself song. but this sound is great. My record got worn out because of it!
killer track!!!
this song is really a killer track!! the lyrics are just perfect...it's a track for all the broken heat and fooled people! 'I'm so alone'
um pretty much i love this song. wonderful lyrics.i found the song highly emtional. yea i love it.
yeah, i don't think this song has anything to do with religion. seeing as how there is an actual reference to a god in the song...it's such amazing writing that if it were about religion, that line would have been left out and left for us to interpret. a great song, none the less.