Gear Box

I remember you used to pray for me now you turn your head away Expectations that I never met, forgotten promises you never kept I know someday there'll be a time when you can look me in the eye Now I write these words just to keep it clear in a jaded song you won't ever hear I never wanted your forgiveness you did what you had to I did what I could now we've gone our separate ways. I never found comfort in your acceptance, if time's a healer then I'll sit and wait for your poison words to scar. A notebook filled with a million words sits quietly by my side. Like a loaded gun with the wrong intentions they tell me life is pain I forgot a long time ago, but everyday I'm reminded of the way You put me down, the way you put me out, the way you torched my fucking world I don't need your lies don't need your promises don't want your open arms don't need your sacred ways all I need is all I am today. What was once belief has now turned to grief and there ain't nothin' more that you could say Look to myself for everything I need, ain't lookin' back on anything. So you think you got me all figured out
and you think you know what this hate is all about Don't try to understand, don't try to comprehend the answer is my words. When the world comes crashin' down all around and I need a quiet place to hide. You'll find me deep inside my head under a tree of thought in a world of pain. I never wanted you here, I never needed you here so when you think of me try to understandguide me through your maze of lies to guide me through your narrow world. I forgot a long time ago, now every day I'm reminded of the way you put me down the way you put me out the way you torched my whole world.