I'm afraid of a sure thing of a change in the here
and now and the force when it hits me the full weight of it when I'm down
The fucking air in the city when the phase-shifting sign is off
if this ship is unsteady, how will that lifeboat hold us all
I aint gonna crawl-tell them all to forget it tell them that's
it then call it off cause I'm worried about money and paradigm stores running low
I ain't gonna crawl but I'll lie on the road
so how can I laugh how can I take it without some doubt
how can I laugh how can I face it right away with everything gone wrong
with everything all over anyway I need some grace
Say goodbye to aesthetic,
better taste and essential self 'cause I'm just tired of running
and there's a time bomb in this head
So just who's the real killer and what made his paint dry?
It's kind of hard to imagine Holidays in Neurotica
A slap in the faith, hard, opened hand is the one reality
I can never protect myself from, even in the sparkle yard at end
of day warm summer madness in the bouquet of a dream son,
astral projecting, failing to right wrongs when the whole thing starts to open up
I ain't gonna crawl without falling hard, without some pain
whenever the fog breaks and a day takes hold
I just can't think straight right away maybe I'll come around...
or not I'm swinging again and all my ex-friends say its psycho-pathetic
and way too gone, almost painless even though I wondered
if something was wrong all along.


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    It's about giving up on trying to find happiness.

    'afraid of a sure thing, of a change in the here and now,' The storyteller doesn't want to be completely happy or sad, he doesn't want anything to change.

    'And the force when it hits me, the full weight of it when I'm down' The force of realizing that he can't do anything to help himself. Feels even worse once he's given up.

    'THE FUCKING AIR IN THE CITY,WHEN THE PHASE SHIFTING SIGN IS OFF!' I think this is a metaphor for his state of mind, how he hates when he isn't being neurotic.

    'IF THE SHIP IS UNSTEADY, HOW WILL THE LIFE BOAT HOLD US ALL?' This one's kind of obvious, he's saying "if this state of mind is so bad how will I get better?"

    'I ain't gonna crawl' I'm done struggling, 'I'll lie on the road' I'll stay in this bad state.

    'tell them all to forget it, tell them that's it, then call it off, cause I'm worried about money, and paradigm stores running low' Tell them I'm done trying to get better, Because I'm almost out of money, And low on my shortcut to happiness(drugs?)

    'so how can I laugh?' How can I feel good?

    'how can I take it without some doubt' How can I do it without thinking of sadness ahead?

    'how can I laugh?' How do I feel good?

    'how can I face it right away' How can I be better immediately?

    'with everything gone wrong with everything all over anyway' Everything's messed up, I'm done with dealing with everything.

    'I need some grace' I need some excess(sex,drugs,partying)

    'Say goodbye to aesthetic,' The excess stopped it's thing

    'better taste and essential self' I have no more self worth

    'cause I'm just tired of running' I'm done trying to be happy

    'and there's a time bomb in this head' My mental state is deteriorating.

    'So just who's the real killer?' Anti-hero suggests that even if he killed himself, it would be the rest of society's fault.

    'And what made his paint dry' What part made me so certain about this?

    'It's kind of hard to imagine holidays in neurotica' It's hard to be happy when everything's always changing

    'A slap in the faith, hard, opened hand is the one reality I can never protect myself from,' The hero knows people will always insult him, and there's no way he can stop it.

    'Even in the sparkle yard at end of day warm summer madness in the bouquet of a dream son, The hero is aware people will always dislike him, even when he's in a better place, and the future

    'astral projecting, failing to right wrongs when the whole thing starts to open up' Whenever the hero, is at piece mentally, he fails to make amends to things he did when he was in the wrong state of mind

    'I ain't gonna crawl, without falling hard, without some pain,' I'm not gonna get better without hardship, and sadness...

    this part suggests drug abuse 'Whenever the fog breaks, and a day takes hold' Whenever I'm actually happy,

    'I just can't think straight right away,' I get too euphoric

    'Maybe I'll come around...' Maybe I'll still be happy when I come down,

    'or not, I'm swinging again and all my ex-friends say it's psycho pathetic' not happy when I come down, and doing the same swing-set routine between happy and sad and my friends hide their true opinion(pathetic) with other comments.

    'And way too gone' Saying I've gone to far...

    'Almost painless even though, I wondered if something was wrong all along.' (obvious)

    I love this song and am listening to it right now.

    halflife213on July 28, 2011   Link

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