A Self Portrait

Today the sun burned away at my face and i just let it burn. Another angel
turned her back on me. She folded her wings and hung her head. God you
gave me this heart but I was wondering if I could trade it in. I wail and I weep
for I can not sleep for I stare at the ghosts of my own design. Driving past the
quiet steeples in the night. I harbor these tears in my eyes and wonder of the
day this came upon me. She thinks she is hearing sounds in the night and I am
fighting just to sleep. And I wail and I weep. The bells will ring in the steeple
in the morning. And I'm just now trying to find myself. Singing the words to
create acceptance were never my good intentions. And now I've only a house
full of regrets. Shatter the glass of my eye. And I will come to see the blinding
darkness. And I've lost sight of all that is real. For I sit here alone. I write a
novel of my own. And there are no happy endings in this tradgedy. Sometimes
I am almost content in my sorrow. And it makes my eyelids hang low. My ship
is sailing to the seas. So wave and blow your kisses. 'Cause I'm not sure I'll
be home anytime soon. I've set out to fail the world. I've set out to fail myself.
I will dream the dreamers lie that everything is okay. When everything isn't
okay. He says my burden is also his but I don't want to put this on him. Stare
up at steeples lost in the night. I find that I'm lost. And now I've only a house
full of regrets. And as the wind blows it takes with it all the memories. And as
the breeze blows I turn my eyes to the skies and hope for hope that this will
soon come to pass.