This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
The end result of so many meetings
at late night diners with no one eating,
we sit in corners
and sip burnt coffee,
count the tiles
up on the ceiling,
skip this pretense
and cut straight to dying,
don’t beg me to keep your eyes from crying.
You said so much
without ever parting your lips.
It’s past 3am and I'm still far from sleep,
and this is a habit I can’t break,
you're my only company,
I'm skipping stones.
And the street lights flicker like this match in my hand,
the street lights flicker like this match in my hand.
And street lights flicker like this match in my hand,
begging to strike.
Begging to strike.
And I keep repeating but this payphone telly stopped receiving,
flat out of change now.
I'm sure you won't accept the charges.
It’s all the same because by morning I'll be halfway to Colorado
or someplace like that.
You said so much without ever parting your lips.
Its past 3am and I'm still far from sleep,
and this is a habit I cant break.
You're my only company,
I'm skipping stones down a sub-suburban street.
She keeps on asking:
“Do you think it hurts much to die?“
It’s hurting so much more to stay alive now,
She’s gonna find out how much it hurts to die.
She laced her perfume up with death,
I feel it in my lungs,
so I'll pull in the deepest breath and drop my head.
at late night diners with no one eating,
we sit in corners
and sip burnt coffee,
count the tiles
up on the ceiling,
skip this pretense
and cut straight to dying,
don’t beg me to keep your eyes from crying.
You said so much
without ever parting your lips.
It’s past 3am and I'm still far from sleep,
and this is a habit I can’t break,
you're my only company,
I'm skipping stones.
And the street lights flicker like this match in my hand,
the street lights flicker like this match in my hand.
And street lights flicker like this match in my hand,
begging to strike.
Begging to strike.
And I keep repeating but this payphone telly stopped receiving,
flat out of change now.
I'm sure you won't accept the charges.
It’s all the same because by morning I'll be halfway to Colorado
or someplace like that.
You said so much without ever parting your lips.
Its past 3am and I'm still far from sleep,
and this is a habit I cant break.
You're my only company,
I'm skipping stones down a sub-suburban street.
She keeps on asking:
“Do you think it hurts much to die?“
It’s hurting so much more to stay alive now,
She’s gonna find out how much it hurts to die.
She laced her perfume up with death,
I feel it in my lungs,
so I'll pull in the deepest breath and drop my head.
Lyrics submitted by radiosilencex
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