Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
One, it multiplies until you can taste the sun
And burn by the sky, you try to take it from
But if it falls, there's no place to run
Crumbling down, it's (so unreal)
They're dealing you in to the term and your end
And sending you back again to places you've been
And bending your will until it breaks you within
And still, they (fill their eyes)
With the twilight, through the skylight
End the highlights on a frame of steel
See the brightness of your likeness as I write this
On a path through (the way I feel)
Hear the screaming, am I dreaming, as it's seeming
That you've played your part
Like you're heartless, take apart this
In the darkness, but I know that
I've tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I broke down line once there is not what ought to be
Held back by the battles they fought for me
Calling me to be part of their property
And now I see that I (get no chance)
I get no breaks, fakes and snakes
Quickly lead to mistakes
And now the tightrope within slowly starts to thin
I could only hope that they (close their eyes)
With the twilight, through the skylight
End the highlights on a frame of steel
See the brightness of your likeness as I write this
On a path through (the way I feel)
Hear the screaming, am I dreaming, as it's seeming
That you've played your part
Like you're heartless, take apart this in the darkness
But I know that
I've tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
(I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know) x3
I've tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
And burn by the sky, you try to take it from
But if it falls, there's no place to run
Crumbling down, it's (so unreal)
They're dealing you in to the term and your end
And sending you back again to places you've been
And bending your will until it breaks you within
And still, they (fill their eyes)
With the twilight, through the skylight
End the highlights on a frame of steel
See the brightness of your likeness as I write this
On a path through (the way I feel)
Hear the screaming, am I dreaming, as it's seeming
That you've played your part
Like you're heartless, take apart this
In the darkness, but I know that
I've tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I broke down line once there is not what ought to be
Held back by the battles they fought for me
Calling me to be part of their property
And now I see that I (get no chance)
I get no breaks, fakes and snakes
Quickly lead to mistakes
And now the tightrope within slowly starts to thin
I could only hope that they (close their eyes)
With the twilight, through the skylight
End the highlights on a frame of steel
See the brightness of your likeness as I write this
On a path through (the way I feel)
Hear the screaming, am I dreaming, as it's seeming
That you've played your part
Like you're heartless, take apart this in the darkness
But I know that
I've tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
(I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There's only one thing you should know) x3
I've tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Lyrics submitted by spitfirek7, edited by Mellow_Harsher
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