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What else should I be
All apologies
What else could I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Buried

I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything's my fault
I take all the blame
Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn, freezer burn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married
Married
Married
Buried

All alone is all we are
All alone  is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone I s all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone I s all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are
All alone is all we are

	

Lyrics © Bmg Rights Management

Writer

Kurt Cobain

Duration

3:53

Submitted by

bonj On Apr 27, 2001

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by mostly90s

15y ago

Everyone comes so close to getting this song, but are off by just a bit. Firstly, yes, this is akin to a suicide note. It's position at the end of In Utero is no accident, it's Kurt's final message to the world

"What else should I be All apologies"

Most get this, this is like, what else can I be? To put it in today's terms, should I be like Pearl Jam and just make forgettable records a decade after anyone cares about them anymore, or be like U2 and criss cross between techno and saving the world?

"What else should I say Everyone is gay"

Many times Kurt wrote in an abstract and intuitive way. And other times, he was blatantly direct. This is one of those times. This line has nothing to do with being happy or whatever bullshit people are telling themselves. It means exactly what you all deep down know it means. Everyone has homoerotic feelings. Everyone. Get over it. So what else do you cretins want me to say? How about this!

"What else could I write I don't have the right"

He mentioned in his suicide note that he didn't have the right to write music if he no longer felt the passion anymore.

"What else should I be All apologies

In the sun In the sun I feel as one In the sun In the sun I'm married buried"

Most people get this. The sun is the equivalent of being dead, and feel as one is being free. Married and buried? Maybe that's what comes to us all? Or maybe that's what makes you feel as one? Or perhaps both. Nirvana lyrics frequently had double meanings

"I wish I was like you Easily amused Find my nest of salt"

He wishes he could be like most people, and be happy with their TV's and beer and strip clubs. Or be like most celebrities, and be happy with the money, fame, drugs, and whores. He can't

"Everything is my fault I'll take all the blame"

Again, this is very direct, and means exactly what it seems. No one is responsible for Kurt's suicide besides Kurt, and no one should feel responsible. This seems like it could be sarcastic, but it's not. Sarcasm generally doesn't litter suicide notes, sincerity does (as well as self-loathing)

"Aqua seafoam shame Sunburn with freezerburn Choking on the ashes of her enemy"

This is a little tougher, as it's very much on the abstract side. "Aqua seafoam shame" would seem to indicate shame that goes out to the ocean like ashes. "Sunburn with freezerburn" seems to indicate something akin to a double edge sword, or between a rock and a hard place. You get burned both ways. Maybe that's how he viewed being a famous band versus being an underground band? And "choking on the ashes of her enemy" would seem to go in line with "aqua seafoam shame," meaning the ashes of the enemy of mother nature will go out to be part of it. It's a self-loathing view. It has nothing to do with Courtney Love.

"All alone is all we are (x14)"

I changed it to what it really says. "All in all is all we are" means absolutely nothing. "All alone is all we are" means exactly what it says. We're all alone in this world. He says it very clearly, especially at the last line when the instruments go off. Listen closely to Kurt's final message to the world if you want to know what All Apologies says

Everyone comes so close to getting this song, but are off by just a bit.  Firstly, yes, this is akin to a suicide note.  It's position at the end of In Utero is no accident, it's Kurt's final message to the world

"What else should I be
All apologies"

Most get this, this is like, what else can I be?  To put it in today's terms, should I be like Pearl Jam and just make forgettable records a decade after anyone cares about them anymore, or be like U2 and criss cross between techno and saving the world?

"What else should I say
Everyone is gay"

Many times Kurt wrote in an abstract and intuitive way.  And other times, he was blatantly direct.  This is one of those times.  This line has nothing to do with being happy or whatever bullshit people are telling themselves.  It means exactly what you all deep down know it means.  Everyone has homoerotic feelings.  Everyone.  Get over it.  So what else do you cretins want me to say?  How about this!

"What else could I write
I don't have the right"

He mentioned in his suicide note that he didn't have the right to write music if he no longer felt the passion anymore.

"What else should I be
All apologies

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
buried"

Most people get this.  The sun is the equivalent of being dead, and feel as one is being free.  Married and buried?  Maybe that's what comes to us all?  Or maybe that's what makes you feel as one?  Or perhaps both.  Nirvana lyrics frequently had double meanings

"I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt"

He wishes he could be like most people, and be happy with their TV's and beer and strip clubs.  Or be like most celebrities, and be happy with the money, fame, drugs, and whores.  He can't

"Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame"

Again, this is very direct, and means exactly what it seems.  No one is responsible for Kurt's suicide besides Kurt, and no one should feel responsible.  This seems like it could be sarcastic, but it's not.  Sarcasm generally doesn't litter suicide notes, sincerity does (as well as self-loathing)

"Aqua seafoam shame
Sunburn with freezerburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy"

This is a little tougher, as it's very much on the abstract side.  "Aqua seafoam shame" would seem to indicate shame that goes out to the ocean like ashes.  "Sunburn with freezerburn" seems to indicate something akin to a double edge sword, or between a rock and a hard place.  You get burned both ways.  Maybe that's how he viewed being a famous band versus being an underground band?  And "choking on the ashes of her enemy" would seem to go in line with "aqua seafoam shame," meaning the ashes of the enemy of mother nature will go out to be part of it.  It's a self-loathing view.  It has nothing to do with Courtney Love.

"All alone is all we are (x14)"

I changed it to what it really says.  "All in all is all we are" means absolutely nothing.  "All alone is all we are" means exactly what it says.  We're all alone in this world.  He says it very clearly, especially at the last line when the instruments go off.  Listen closely to Kurt's final message to the world if you want to know what All Apologies says

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by monimari 11y ago

Perhaps, "All I know is all we are"? As if he's giving up hope on humanity.

by muddywater 11y ago

the phrase "all in all is all we all are" is the original phrase and that's the one that is on the "in utero" album. the phrase you are referring to "all alone is all we all are" he used only one time and was at the MTV unplugged show.

by headofradio 11y ago

Brilliant and perfectly sensical. As for muddywater above, the dude IS right, he does seem to say something very close to "alone."

by PairOFish 10y ago

@mostly90s "All in all is all we are" may be a reference to the Pixies song "Levitate Me" which includes the lyrics "If all in all is true" which is repeated several times.

If not, then my interpretation is that it's sort of like saying that, overall, humans are just sort of here, nothing more. Everything we've done or will do boils down to just us existing or not existing, anything else is getting into specifics.

by jessedudez 8y ago

@mostly90s

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"What else should I say Everyone is gay"

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I don't care that this post is from 7 years ago. I'm going to just say: absolutely...

I don't care that this post is from 7 years ago. I'm going to just say: absolutely NOT is this Kurt saying that everyone has homoerotic feelings. I feel like you'd have to have such a poor knowledge of his character to think he was being literal. He is using the term gay DEROGATORILY----Kurt was a MISANTHROPE. He was simply saying that he feels that everyone is disgenuine, chirpy, and just unbearable. It has nothing to do with fucking homoeroticism, jesus christ. I don't know why this annoyed me so much, but it feels like it's coming from someone that knows so little about Kurt.

by jazzpop 7y ago

@jessedudez

I don't care if this post is months old. I'm just going to say, Cobain thought being gay, bisexuality, lesbian, what have you was completely natural. His mother was a homophobic lady (possibly, much like you!). He is using the word gay--literally. (Did you see how I didnt have to use caps to get my point across? "I feel like you have to have such a poor knowledge of his character" to think he was saying otherwise. I don't know why the word gay makes you so angry, I hope all is better with you in the end. Check...

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by poisontongue 7y ago

Hey, I don't think that poster was being derogatory towards homosexuality. At least, there's no real evidence of that in that post. I also think they're right, that the lyric wasn't meant to represent that "everyone has homoerotic tendencies" (which I disagree with, notwithstanding). I think it has more to do with everyone being... what? Identical, happy (in appearance at least), different from Kurt. That would fit with "all in all/all alone."

Some other interpretations:

The sun part (married, buried) to me does invoke death, but also the personification of it. It's a popular enough...

by jv90 5y ago

@mostly90s some decent interpretations. too confident overall. one can't be too confident when interpreting poetry, especially from someone like Kurt. lots of his stuff could intentionally have multiple meanings, while some could intentionally have no meaning at all (except maybe to mess with people who think everything has to have meaning).

He is definitely sad. I definitely think "Married, Buried" is pretty obvious. He was in a fucking shitty relationship with a disloyal whore by many accounts. The line "everyone is gay" can have at least 3 meanings, as was pointed out above: it can mean

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by JarMa13 3y ago

@mostly90s \r\nYou\'re almost right.\r\nSunburn freezer burn choking on the ashes of her enemy is someone that has been beaten into the ground so hard core that they\'re a freezerburned sunburn, choking on the ashes of her enemy.\r\nIt\'s desperate suffering.\r\nBut he\'s not saying everyone has homoerotic feelings. Because of where he was in the world, he knew the truth, that humans ARE naturally gay and this heteronormative society is something rulers created to get peasants to create cannon fodder exponentially.\r\nAnd worst of all, he has sold himself, raped himself, and he is the image of masculinity all peasants aspire to. He...

@[mostly90s:40359] \r\nYou\'re almost right.\r\nSunburn freezer burn choking on the ashes of her enemy is someone that has been beaten into the ground so hard core that they\'re a freezerburned sunburn, choking on the ashes of her enemy.\r\nIt\'s desperate suffering.\r\nBut he\'s not saying everyone has homoerotic feelings. Because of where he was in the world, he knew the truth, that humans ARE naturally gay and this heteronormative society is something rulers created to get peasants to create cannon fodder exponentially.\r\nAnd worst of all, he has sold himself, raped himself, and he is the image of masculinity all peasants aspire to. He IS the sellout that caused all his persecution.\r\nHe hates himself for it so much he can\'t deal.\r\nSo he\'s saying all in all is all we are because... He had his good points, too but he just can\'t reconcile what he\'s become.\r\nIt is absolutely his suicide note.\r\nNo one knows this but all celebrities are gay. Every relationship we hear about is just a PR arrangement. Like he and Courtney were. Frances is a petri dish baby. Like all celebrity kids.\r\nWhen you make it and realize every heterosexual character you\'ve ever seen was played by a publicly closeted, out gay person, you begin to see that heterosexuality only exists among the subjugated peasants. If you follow his career, it\'s obvious he was gay. Why would two straight men make out on SNL to piss off homophobes?\r\nBut he became part of the heteronormative illusion that brainwashes peasants. He couldn\'t live with it.\r\nAs for final judgement, while I wish he hadn\'t killed himself, the fact that he couldn\'t live with it tells us he WAS a better person than all the others who so comfortably lie through their teeth every time a camera rolls.\r\n

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by Voidandsolace 2y ago

@mostly90s

Esoteric take.

"All in all is all we are."

All is one is all.

"In the sun I feel as one."

Very new age viewpoint. The sun was/is revered as the logos. In some circles, we all return to it in death.

"I wish I was like you, easily amused."

As do I, as do we all. Spoken like one is aware of the nature of life.

While I am not informed on Kurt's viewpoint, and I am not saying i am correct, each song can mean something different to each...

by beth46307

23y ago

I know everyone who wrote what they think the song about is probably really smart, smarter than me, but you guys are all way too analytical. Kurt Cobain wrote this song a long time before he even met Courtney Love. And Courtney Love was doing drugs a long time before she met Kurt Cobain. It doesn't have anything to do with her. And I can see how someone could think that it was about Courtney Love, (I'm married/buried) but I really think it was a stretch to say that it was about him got her hooked onto drugs. Now that I've said that, I have to say I don't really know what the song is about. Unless Kurt told someone, he was vague to the point where no one could figure out exactly what he meant. And I'm not criticizing him for it; I think it proves his integrity just a little bit more because he didn't write an obvious song just so it would be more mainstream and people would get it. It could have been about his own negative view about marriage from childhood, since his parents got divorced when he was nine. It could be about so many things, which I think makes it a better song because more people could relate to it based on their own experiences.

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by jesslovesmusic89 16y ago

I love this! I hate that when people try to determine lyrics for Nirvana, it always ends up being about Courtney Love.. the same thing for Hole.. all the lyrics have to be about Kurt Cobain

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by mmp806 15y ago

thank you!! I don't think it has anything to w/ that horrible woman. I agree w/ you 100%!!

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by bobolson 15y ago

i think it has to do with how everyone looks at him as some kind of genius for his wonderful insightful lyrics haha, but in reality theyre not as complicated as anyone says, and as someone else pointed out the lyrics are the least important part of his songs, because he is strongly influenced by sonic youth and one can see clear similarities on this album, and noise is really an emotionally solute form of music, an aesthetic wholly embraced on this album, yet none of his fans seem to understand them at all, and this album was pretty much...

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by muddywater 11y ago

wrong! you are way off. Kurt wrote this song in 1992 around the same time he wrote "heart shaped box". he was already married to Courtney during that time and his marriage wasn't doing all that great, in fact it threatened the very existence of the band. aside from being a song about guilt, self loathing and the feeling of worthlessness this song has everything to do with Courtney and that's why Kurt dedicated this song to his wife and new born baby at the 1992 Reading festival (which was by far one of the best shows Nirvana ever preformed). you where...

by Glynis

23y ago

This song is a song that should mean whatever you want it to mean. It could have so many meanings. To me though, it's saying alot. each line has new meaning to me. but i can relate to it the most when i'm feeling trapped, like no one likes me, when i have no idea what to write, when i feel like everyones blaming me for something that's not my fault. when i just want to crawl into a hole and never come out. when i'm feeling alone. but all in all, i think it's one of the greatest songs ever written.

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by nevermind17 13y ago

when you say "crawl into a hole" i totally understand you. Thats what i want to do when i feel really down to. (im not saying that sarcastically)

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by butterfly_screams

23y ago

LETS THINK ABOUT THIS FOR A SECOND. IF YOU DONT KNOW WHAT A SONG MEANS, WHY DO YOU WASTE SPACE JUST TO SAY..."I DONT KNOW WHAT THIS SONG MEANS" ...GIVE ME A BREAK!! :)

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by SNEEZE 15y ago

Shut up!! You just wasted twice as much space saying that!! grr

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by catcherinthedark

15y ago

Aqua seafoam shame is a reference to Kurt's feelings about the Nevermind album. It's well documented that Kurt thought Nevermind was "over-produced for his liking". http://www.dooyoo.co.uk/music-records/nevermind-nirvana/1002028/

At the time Nevermind wrapped Kurt complained that it was a sellout, that it didn't have the raw honesty of "Bleach", a problem he would correct with "In Utero". The phrase "aqua seafoam" refers to the colors on Nevermind's album cover.

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by ibstrumming 15y ago

catcherinthedark- I think you are right about the aqua-seafoam shame from Nevermind- good call! Kurt had previously thought of his music as a lark and really struggled with his success, since mainstream society had always treated him (and his friends) unkindly growing up(also, he wanted to be punk- but could never quite emulate his influences properly). I think the first verse was a tribute to his first real friend growing up, who was gay...throughout this song, he gave his friend a voice to the mainstream, telling everyone -look- I was born this way- so he sarcastically apoligizes for being the way he is...and all of his rights for being "gay" were subsequently not the same as other folks, so, again, Kurt sarcastically writes (giving voice to his friend) "I don't have the right". In the sun he felt as one with the world-since we all share at least that (so he felt married or connected to society by this common denominator), but that makes him even more distraught, buried in his own self-loathing for being like the rest of the world, when they are typically so cruel and so unaware of their own inadequacies...Then I think that Kurt wished that he was not so bored with the world and its pettiness, so he wishes that he could be "easily amused"...but instead, he finds his bitterness ("nest of salt") will not allow him any amusement. On the contrary, since he is in such pain and self-loathing, why not take all the blame for everything- it's not gonna effect him anyway- (sunburn with freezerburn)- he is now loved by many in society to the point that the glare is too much(sunburn) after so many years of the world leaving him and his friends out in the cold(freezerburn). (Choking on the ashes of her enemy)- Since they are now on fire(metaphorically), the world is now choking on their stunning succes- but who cares right? Throughout the song, his overall attitude is "hey assholes, what else do you have to throw at me, and what else could you possibly want?"- which I think sums up the whole tone of the song...Anyway- I realize this is just one interpretation...thanks for the aqua-seafoam thing- I was really struggling to make sense of that..."mostly90's"- I like your interpretation as well- I think that Kurt put many double meanings into his songs, like most great artists, so that we would ponder and debate them, and they would thus live on through their music and lyrics...

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catcherinthedark- I think you are right about the aqua-seafoam shame from Nevermind- good call! Kurt had previously thought of his music as a lark and really struggled with his success, since mainstream society had always treated him (and his friends) unkindly growing up(also, he wanted to be punk- but could never quite emulate his influences properly).  I think the first verse was a tribute to his first real friend growing up, who was gay...throughout this song, he gave his friend a voice to the mainstream, telling everyone -look- I was born this way- so he sarcastically apoligizes for being the way he is...and all of his rights for being "gay" were subsequently not the same as other folks, so, again, Kurt sarcastically writes (giving voice to his friend) "I don't have the right".  In the sun he felt as one with the world-since we all share at least that (so he felt married or connected to society by this common denominator), but that makes him even more distraught, buried in his own self-loathing for being like the rest of the world, when they are typically so cruel and so unaware of their own inadequacies...Then I think that Kurt wished that he was not so bored with the world and its pettiness, so he wishes that he could be "easily amused"...but instead, he finds his bitterness ("nest of salt") will not allow him any amusement.  On the contrary, since he is in such pain and self-loathing, why not take all the blame for everything- it's not gonna effect him anyway- (sunburn with freezerburn)- he is now loved by many in society to the point that the glare is too much(sunburn) after so many years of the world leaving him and his friends out in the cold(freezerburn).  (Choking on the ashes of her enemy)- Since they are now on fire(metaphorically), the world is now choking on their stunning succes- but who cares right?  Throughout the song, his overall attitude is "hey assholes, what else do you have to throw at me, and what else could you possibly want?"- which I think sums up the whole tone of the song...Anyway- I realize this is just one interpretation...thanks for the aqua-seafoam thing- I was really struggling to make sense of that..."mostly90's"- I like your interpretation as well- I think that Kurt put many double meanings into his songs, like most great artists, so that we would ponder and debate them, and they would thus live on through their music and lyrics...

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by F3rgus 1y ago

@catcherinthedark He called Nevermind's priduction 'Candy-ass'

by F3rgus 1y ago

@catcherinthedark He called Nevermind's production 'Candy-ass'

by dellslave

23y ago

the first verse... "What else should I be All apologies" --asking if he should not be a star because he isn't a role modle "What else should I say Everyone is gay" --asking if you blame him for being what we all want him to be...a rebell--for lack of a better word "What else could I write I don't have the right" --it isn't his job to say Courtney is hooked on drugs though he admits he is---this meaning might be off..its an interesting line..but it would fallow with my theroy. "What else should I be All apologies" --repeated...mainly he can't stop thinking its his fault and the coures.. in the sun--his description of being high..sun..later he says Courtney is sunburned...(now you see my point) in the sun i feel as one--when he is high he feels whole. just my theroy..

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by tvsinesperanto 15y ago

That's a pretty long bow to be pulling, I can't say I agree with you. Seems like you've decided what it's about and then twisted the interpretation to fit it.

I'm pretty sure that this was written well before he met Courtney Love anyway.

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by GCK

22y ago

Chill out on the murder thing and this being a "Suicide Note" song. All his albums displayed suicidal meanings and when he finally did it, it proves he's not whining and gutless. I don't agree with suicide but fuck, when you're depressed... And this song was written in 1990. The lyrics changed some. Kurt always said he wanted to be vague, let it mean what it does for you, that's music. Some of you had some great interpretations, others are lost like Kurt would like you to be. I don't know shit but in a previous album he states "god is gay" (stay away, nevermind) "What else can I say?"

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by nickster007

15y ago

'In utero' was front loaded with all the 'tunes' and descends into a dissonant squall towards the end (which I love).

It was a deliberate attempt to alienate the very people that had bought their records and put them where they were. The Album finishes with 'All apologies'. Basically a sarcastic retort to all the mugs who liked them for their 'pretty songs' and had bought this album, scratching their heads going WTF?!

It's like he's saying 'Not what you expected? Nevermind II? Sorry guys.....' with a wry grin on his face.

PS I think 'In Utero' is head and shoulders above 'Nevermind'

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by aphid 15y ago

Is dissonant squall similar in nature to atonal droning or is it a modern take on spectrum loading noises?

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by DSLR

11y ago

After reading through a few of the top responses, I feel confident that they are much closer to the true meaning of this song than my initial interpretation. Still, I thought I would share how I took the lyrics, just for fun.

"What else should I be, All apologies"

I always thought (after hearing the married/buried line) this song was from the perspective of a man trapped in an unhappy marriage, where he is constantly his wife's scapegoat. A guy that has been worn down with blame for so many years that he has come to accept his role as the source of everything wrong in their lives.

"What else could I say Everyone is gay"

I imagined that he eventually came to feel like everyone was against him, and became cynical and worn out with people in general.

"What else could I write I don't have the right"

This bit only makes sense if I think of the lyrics as his bitter suicide note to his family/wife. Exhausted, he is sarcastically saying that if he is such a monster that he doesn't even deserve to explain himself.

"In the sun, I feel as one."

By this point, my own assigned meaning to the song really starts to reach. I apologize, but move forward anyway! "In the sun" meaning under heat constantly. "Feel as one" could be a reference to the joining of he and his wife in marriage. So, with both considered, he is always under scrutiny in his marriage, always having to sweat it out.

"I'm married/Buried."

Well, that is pretty much the reason for the rest of my interpretation. Married and feeling utterly trapped.

"I wish I was like you Easily amused Find my nest of salt Everything is my fault"

Get ready for some more stretching, because here I go! He is wishing that he could be as easily satisfied with assigning blame and dodging responsibility. The "nest of salt" meaning the home/habit people have made out of rubbing salt in his wounds; giving him problems because it is easier on them (namely his wife).

"I'll take all the blame, Aqua sea foam shame, Sunburn with freeze burn, Choking on the ashes of her enemy"

Sigh, I can only suspect the ocean has something to do with the "nest of salt." Maybe, just maybe, meaning the relentless nature of the criticism, like the ceaseless tide? The sun/freeze burn is somewhat an oxymoron to draw attention to the way his wife is leaving him alone and isolated by the constant heat she puts on him. The sunburn could be a reference to the earlier lyric "in the sun, I feel as one," explaining that all the blame he receives is catching up with his mental health/self esteem. The "freeze burn" meaning the cold, icy, relationship he now has with his wife. "Choking on the ashes of her enemy" describes how she is growing tired with ripping him to shreds because he is no longer able to be hurt by it. He has lost feeling and become numb, which robs her of much of the satisfaction gained from hurting him.

"All alone is all we are"

Finally, his feelings that marriage only advertises lifelong companionship without ever providing it. Again, this is the cynical conclusion drawn in what could be a suicide note.

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"What else could I say
Everyone is gay"

I imagined that he eventually came to feel like everyone was against him, and  became cynical and worn out with people in general.

"What else could I write
I don't have the right"

"In the sun, I feel as one."

"I'm married/Buried."

Well, that is pretty much the reason for the rest of my interpretation. Married and feeling utterly trapped.

"I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault"

"I'll take all the blame,
Aqua sea foam shame,
Sunburn with freeze burn,
Choking on the ashes of her enemy"

Sigh, I can only suspect the ocean has something to do with the "nest of salt." Maybe, just maybe, meaning the relentless nature of the criticism, like the ceaseless tide? 
The sun/freeze burn is somewhat an oxymoron to draw attention to the way his wife is leaving him alone and isolated by the constant heat she puts on him.  The sunburn could be a reference to the earlier lyric "in the sun, I feel as one," explaining that all the blame he receives is catching up with his mental health/self esteem. The "freeze burn" meaning the cold, icy, relationship he now has with his wife.
"Choking on the ashes of her enemy" describes how she is growing tired with ripping him to shreds because he is no longer able to be hurt by it. He has lost feeling and become numb, which robs her of much of the satisfaction gained from hurting him.

"All alone is all we are"

Finally, his feelings that marriage only advertises lifelong companionship without ever providing it. Again, this is the cynical conclusion drawn in what could be a suicide note.

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by terrible

16y ago

This song is about someone who apoligizes for the things that he says and does, but he continues to do them regardless. Eventually she starts to doubt his sincerety. If he was really sorry then why does he continue to do the same thing over and over. She starts to understand that he truly isn't sorry. She never saw him express true remorse. He didn't seem sorrowful when he saw her in pain. He knows she has low self-esteem and has a hard time standing up for herself. He only seemed sorry to see the consequences of his abusive behaviour. He reverts back to his abusive behaviour as soon as he thinks he can get away with it again. She eventually understands that he isn't that man she thought he was. She keeps clinging to the hope that she's wrong about him. He's still really the man she first met. She starts to accept reality for it is.He doesn't love her. Because love always protects.

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