This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
built all of this from the ground up
you just going down, I'm a round up
hate me, don't wanna talk about it now, huh
don't wanna double check the facts now, huh?
turning my hobbies into checks
like a pair of Nike's, that's a double check
don't believe me, you can double check
I'm always right, that's a double check
careers that shoulda taken me five years, but it only took 1
two checks, only, it's funny back when I was young
I used to sit back and watch the bills pile up
and now I just sit back and watch the bills pile up (ha-ha)
Got a new pair of Nike's
2 million, but it feels like it costs none
pretty penny, pretty person, tell me, what's the difference
I remind myself of Amazon, always smile, and do all the delivering
I rap and I write, facts that I rhyme
that's what I like, wax every night
then I come back like I'm Bruce Wayne
but I'm Bruce Lee with the way I'm kicking these beats
like, don't even try me
I can beat you without even trying
if we was letters you'd be A through Z
but I'm a W, you just a double me
'cause I
built all of this from the ground up
you just going down, I'm a round up
hate me, don't wanna talk about it now, huh
don't wanna double check the facts now, huh?
turning my hobbies into checks
like a pair of Nike's, that's a double check
don't believe me, you can double check
I'm always right, that's a double check
I have two words tell you what you are
'not him' that's what you are
strutting around thinking you are, but realize
buddy, you can't even catch a cold, not no woman's eyes
but I'm up here showing you everything to do right
but even if you copy me and all my rhymes
66 times you'll never get it right
by the time I'm 105, you'll never get it right
just like the way I'm going
the game's going left, but I'm just flowing
in my own money, come find me
like it's Nemo, finding my voice in the moment
speakin in front of crowds, absolutely glowing
every word I make is like if Mozart made a poem
got my hand on the game, I'm totaly controlling
like we playing kahoot, I'm out there trolling
sitting back and watching this riot unfolding
but no matter the obstacle I'm still rolling
so let my words sink in while I keep floating
through my own river, just let my flow in
it'll be years before my closing
I look out and I see y'all hoping
that I fall, that's cold, not gonna sugarcoat it
everybody with me, that's why neighborhoods are zoning
and when I say this, I ain't joking
you a pinhead, get a strike when I'm bowling
on through, you stopping and choking
look at me, Tsar Bobma,my careers exploding
getting too cocky, my heads overflowing
said it woodwork, made my own boat and I'm rowing
never needed input, did it all on my own
I'm never gonna fall like it's snowing
you just going down, I'm a round up
hate me, don't wanna talk about it now, huh
don't wanna double check the facts now, huh?
turning my hobbies into checks
like a pair of Nike's, that's a double check
don't believe me, you can double check
I'm always right, that's a double check
careers that shoulda taken me five years, but it only took 1
two checks, only, it's funny back when I was young
I used to sit back and watch the bills pile up
and now I just sit back and watch the bills pile up (ha-ha)
Got a new pair of Nike's
2 million, but it feels like it costs none
pretty penny, pretty person, tell me, what's the difference
I remind myself of Amazon, always smile, and do all the delivering
I rap and I write, facts that I rhyme
that's what I like, wax every night
then I come back like I'm Bruce Wayne
but I'm Bruce Lee with the way I'm kicking these beats
like, don't even try me
I can beat you without even trying
if we was letters you'd be A through Z
but I'm a W, you just a double me
'cause I
built all of this from the ground up
you just going down, I'm a round up
hate me, don't wanna talk about it now, huh
don't wanna double check the facts now, huh?
turning my hobbies into checks
like a pair of Nike's, that's a double check
don't believe me, you can double check
I'm always right, that's a double check
I have two words tell you what you are
'not him' that's what you are
strutting around thinking you are, but realize
buddy, you can't even catch a cold, not no woman's eyes
but I'm up here showing you everything to do right
but even if you copy me and all my rhymes
66 times you'll never get it right
by the time I'm 105, you'll never get it right
just like the way I'm going
the game's going left, but I'm just flowing
in my own money, come find me
like it's Nemo, finding my voice in the moment
speakin in front of crowds, absolutely glowing
every word I make is like if Mozart made a poem
got my hand on the game, I'm totaly controlling
like we playing kahoot, I'm out there trolling
sitting back and watching this riot unfolding
but no matter the obstacle I'm still rolling
so let my words sink in while I keep floating
through my own river, just let my flow in
it'll be years before my closing
I look out and I see y'all hoping
that I fall, that's cold, not gonna sugarcoat it
everybody with me, that's why neighborhoods are zoning
and when I say this, I ain't joking
you a pinhead, get a strike when I'm bowling
on through, you stopping and choking
look at me, Tsar Bobma,my careers exploding
getting too cocky, my heads overflowing
said it woodwork, made my own boat and I'm rowing
never needed input, did it all on my own
I'm never gonna fall like it's snowing
Lyrics submitted by dyoung6112
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stop with the sarcasm guys.
If anybody has any song ideas, let me know.
NF did not make this song, I did. My name is DYnamic, and I'm a 12 year old rapper in Greenville SC.
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@dyoung6112 You must be a Talented Artist this is a beautiful song if it's popular,i've never listened to it