This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
With the conviction of the woman you made me
I find blades of grass from the island you lent me
I find on every floor, in every drawer
Though I'm not an island, I'm a body of water
Jeweled in the evening, a solitary daughter
If picked at by noon, by midnight I'm ruined
Leave me alone to the books and the radio snow
Leave me alone to the charcoal and the dancing shadow
If each blade of grass was meant here for me
Split apart, sliced, and wedged in for me
Who's gonna treat it?
I'm not going to need it
I am a lake, don't need to be watered
I am an ocean, I don't need to barter
I play with the moon, my only friend
It pushes it pulls me, I don't pay the rent
I don't need the walls to bury my grave
I don't need your company to feel saved
I don't need the sunlight, my curtains don't draw
I don't need the objects to keep or to pawn
I don't want your pity, concern or your scorn
I'm calmed by my lonesome, I feel right at home
And when the wind blows, I get to dancing
My fun is the rhythm of air when it's prancing
I play with the moon, my only friend
It pushes it pulls me, I don't pay the rent
I don't need the walls to bury my grave
I don't need your company to feel saved
I don't need the sunlight, my curtains don't draw
I don't need the objects to keep or to pawn
I don't want your pity, concern or your scorn
I'm calmed by my lonesome, I feel right at home
Leave me alone to the books and the radio snow
Leave me alone to the charcoal and the dancing shadow
I find blades of grass from the island you lent me
I find on every floor, in every drawer
Though I'm not an island, I'm a body of water
Jeweled in the evening, a solitary daughter
If picked at by noon, by midnight I'm ruined
Leave me alone to the books and the radio snow
Leave me alone to the charcoal and the dancing shadow
If each blade of grass was meant here for me
Split apart, sliced, and wedged in for me
Who's gonna treat it?
I'm not going to need it
I am a lake, don't need to be watered
I am an ocean, I don't need to barter
I play with the moon, my only friend
It pushes it pulls me, I don't pay the rent
I don't need the walls to bury my grave
I don't need your company to feel saved
I don't need the sunlight, my curtains don't draw
I don't need the objects to keep or to pawn
I don't want your pity, concern or your scorn
I'm calmed by my lonesome, I feel right at home
And when the wind blows, I get to dancing
My fun is the rhythm of air when it's prancing
I play with the moon, my only friend
It pushes it pulls me, I don't pay the rent
I don't need the walls to bury my grave
I don't need your company to feel saved
I don't need the sunlight, my curtains don't draw
I don't need the objects to keep or to pawn
I don't want your pity, concern or your scorn
I'm calmed by my lonesome, I feel right at home
Leave me alone to the books and the radio snow
Leave me alone to the charcoal and the dancing shadow
Lyrics submitted by ayeshakzuberi
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