Sweet Nothings

I never told her I loved her, I never told her I cared
I never even told her she never had to be scared
I never told her I lied about never telling the truth
I never told her the reason was happenings in my youth
I was told I was fat, I was ugly, and so in matters of heart
I was surpassed by nearly all in my class
And I just stood in the corner and I pretended to laugh
And I smiled when all my homies got 'em some arse
I never gave her a hug, I never held her hand
Until she pointed it out like it wasn't always a plan
It was a little confusing, I always thought I was dutiful
But I fear I never even told her that she was beautiful
'Cause damn it, she was, she was all I ever wanted
She was all I ever needed to break me outta this rotten
State of mind
And if I could relive it I'd tell her and give her
Everything I didn't, yeah, everything I didn't
It would be my pleasure, you could never measure the depth of this
I'd do the last 9 years to steal a single kiss
I'd endure the heartaches and the headaches to plant it
And appreciate what y'all take for granted
I would tell her I loved her, I would tell her I cared
I would tell her that she never ever had to be scared
And I would whisper Sweet Nothings that mean it all, ya see
Because she did mean it all and still means a lot to me
And so I'm writing this song starin' at her picture
A mixture of regret and love and hate a steady fixture
Of the mind of Mikey, psychologically an abomination
Always looking back my only view for concentration
Always stuck on this station despite static most of the time
Tryna piece together this puzzle of fragmentations
But I can't recall exactly how it goes, time slows down
And I'm consumed by the sound, of another throe