Chasing (Demo) Lyrics
And find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be alone
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
Of this high, this high that I've been chasing
I don't see no ending inside
I don't feel the best when I try
Holdin' my head up high, but it's not workin'
Makin' you cry makes me feel like a bad person (Bad Person)
And something's got a hold on me
They don't see the world I see
Hеartbeat in my chest feels weak
It's rеally starting to weigh on me
And find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be alone
Where I don’t have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
Of this high, this high that I've been chasing
Way too many questions in my mind
I don't have the answers but I try
Holdin' my head up high but it's not workin', yeah
Makin' you sad makes me feel like a bad person (Bad Person, person)
I said some awful things last week
Messin' with my self esteem
Mixed up my priorities
It's really startin' to weigh on me, yeah
And find somewhere that feels safe
Find somewhere the bad days
Don't come as often in this sad phase
Somewhere I can be alone
Where I don't have to run away from my flaws
And I don't have to be afraid of my thoughts
Of this high, this high that I've been chasing
The lyrics to the chorus speak of the pain the singer experiences in their relationship. It is evident that they do not feel comfortable or safe in this relationship. For some reason, they are insecure about their flaws, which should not be an issue at all in a loving and tender relationship. The singer is regretting chasing this ‘love’ which turned out to be something else entirely.
Verse 1 In the first verse of the song, NF weighs in on this traumatizing experience he is going on in this relationship. The worst feeling is that he finds no ending to this misery. It is unclear why he cannot call it quits. But we have one hint in the lyrics; “Makin’ you cry makes me feel like a bad person.” Maybe she does not feel the same way as he does.
This toxic relationship has impacted the singer’s life and his perspective of things around him.
Verse 2 In these lyrics, the singer explains how this internal conflict has affected his life in general. His mind is not at peace. This impacts his other relationships such as friends and family, and not in a positive way either.
NF says that he said some hurtful things to his partner last week, which presumably made them cry. He despises seeing them cry too. But he also despises the mental torture he endures in trying to rectify everything.
The singer confesses that he tries so hard to digest this pain and keep moving on. But this never helps. It will keep burning him inside until the time it explodes all over. The end result will not be pretty.