On the Floor

I’m trying but still I close my eyes
The dreaming, bringing his face to mine
(Lock the door)
The constant buzzing all through the night
The fighting rips me all up inside
(On the floor)
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray and wait
I cross out his name on the page
(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) I walk in the light?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?
The rise and fall of his chest on me
I’m trying but still it’s all I see
The violent current of energy
I hide it away and underneath
(Lock the door)
I shake, I promise everyday
To change
I cross out his name on the page
(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) I walk in the light?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?
Take this wildness away
I’m trying but still I close my eyes
The dreaming, bringing his face to mine
(Out the door)
I pace, I run my mouth
I pray to change
I cross out his name on the page
(How long ’til) this washes away?
(How long ’til) my body is safe?
(How long ’til) this heart isn’t mine?
I just want him in my arms
I just want him in my arms