This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I don't know why I wanna fuck with you
But all I know is that I really fuck with you
Really wish you didn't like to fuck with me
Wish you took that energy and trusted me
I get so exhausted when you fuss with me
'Cause all the time, could be spent in love with me
I know I need it and you deserve it
You like to size me up and see if it's all worth it
I don't know where it is now but I'm searchin'
I think you want what I don't ever want be perfect
'Cause I ain't perfect, I just wanna be good to you
I would take my heart right out the hood for you
Wanna do the things I know I should for you
Standing by myself until I stood for you
If I knew this love I woulda looked for you
But I'm glad you found me, I'm glad you found me
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
What you gonna do when you older?
What you gonna do when you grow?
Spit the diamond with us
'Fore I'm taking the bus
I wanna whip to call my own
And my home call my own
All fourteen fifteen of my niggas
To figure, ooh, that's a step-back
Ooh, my nigga, that's a step-back
If I had to choose I would not choose you
If I had to stop I would turn around and choose glue
If I had to hit the breaks I'ma stop right
If I had to choose I'ma not choose you
If I had to turn around, I'ma turn into some glue
If I had to hit the breaks I'ma stop right here, yeah
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
What you gonna do when you older?
What you gonna do when you grow?
You're all I love, washing on my hands
You're all I love, washing on my hands
You're all I love, washing on my hands
Don't waste your mind
I'll be the one to settle
To do what I am
To say what I am
Don't waste your mind
I'll be the one to settle
To do what I am
To say what I am
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
What you gonna do when you older?
What you gonna do when you grow?
Yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
But all I know is that I really fuck with you
Really wish you didn't like to fuck with me
Wish you took that energy and trusted me
I get so exhausted when you fuss with me
'Cause all the time, could be spent in love with me
I know I need it and you deserve it
You like to size me up and see if it's all worth it
I don't know where it is now but I'm searchin'
I think you want what I don't ever want be perfect
'Cause I ain't perfect, I just wanna be good to you
I would take my heart right out the hood for you
Wanna do the things I know I should for you
Standing by myself until I stood for you
If I knew this love I woulda looked for you
But I'm glad you found me, I'm glad you found me
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
What you gonna do when you older?
What you gonna do when you grow?
Spit the diamond with us
'Fore I'm taking the bus
I wanna whip to call my own
And my home call my own
All fourteen fifteen of my niggas
To figure, ooh, that's a step-back
Ooh, my nigga, that's a step-back
If I had to choose I would not choose you
If I had to stop I would turn around and choose glue
If I had to hit the breaks I'ma stop right
If I had to choose I'ma not choose you
If I had to turn around, I'ma turn into some glue
If I had to hit the breaks I'ma stop right here, yeah
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
What you gonna do when you older?
What you gonna do when you grow?
You're all I love, washing on my hands
You're all I love, washing on my hands
You're all I love, washing on my hands
Don't waste your mind
I'll be the one to settle
To do what I am
To say what I am
Don't waste your mind
I'll be the one to settle
To do what I am
To say what I am
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip far
Callin', callin', callin', callin', trip
What you gonna do when you older?
What you gonna do when you grow?
Yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
Gamba Lyrics as written by Clifford Simpson Ciaran Mcdonald
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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