Heavier

No doubt I've done this to myself.
The more you know, the more you know.
And I just can't quit it if you couldn't tell.
I've seen it all, I've seen it all.
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest,
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest.
Am I a fake? Am I a fraud?
And is it worth losing you for?
Another pain I can't ignore,
Another morning on the floor.
I take the blame, I wanna change,
But I can't settle the score.
Now I'm a slave to better days,
And I'm not willing anymore.
I had a dream that I was drowning everyone I've ever loved.
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul.
I'm feeling anxious now it's swallowing me whole.
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest,
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest.
Cold water running down my face,
Just let it go, just let it go.
But there is no mending what I can't replace.
I should've known, I should've known.
Am I a fake? Am I a fraud?
And am I worth losing you for?
Now I'm gutted to the core,
Like I've never been before.
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul.
I'm feeling anxious now it's swallowing me whole.
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest,
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest.
Now it's sinking in.
Thick skin is wearing thin.
Out of my mind,
And it won't come as any surprise.
And I've paid for it this time.
I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul.
I'm feeling anxious now it's swallowing me whole.
And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest,
While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest.
I'm feeling, I'm feeling,
I'm feeling, I'm feeling heavier.
I'm feeling, I'm feeling,
I'm feeling, I'm feeling heavier.