This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I don't know what's living in my body
'Cause I don't recognize a thing about it
That don't even matter, I'm just glad I got into the party
So I can feel your music in my body
'Cause you the only out of everybody
Who can deal with all my ways
I know I got some ways
But you control the flames
So I just wanna stay right here with you
It could be a room full of people, you still on my side
Look at how the whole world is searching, but I got mine
It's emotional, uncontrollable, all I think about is you
So if the tears wanna flood in my gates, let the water flow
Just let it fall out from my face
'Cause I never thought I'd ever hear me say
I just can't breathe without my baby
Ooh, you my baby
So come and kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
I don't even care, I'm nosy
Just keep me there, keep me in the moment
Seen a lot of things, but I never seen my spirit glowing
The way you do me got me outta body
'Cause you the only out of everybody
Who gon' go out of the way to show me all the ways
Can't control the flame
I just wanna stay right here with you
It could be a room full of people, you still on my side
Look at how the whole world is searching, but I got mine
It's emotional, uncontrollable, all I think about is you
So if the tears wanna flood in my gates, let the water flow
Just let it fall out, out from my face
I never thought I'd ever hear me say
I just can't breathe without my baby
Ooh, come here, baby
So you can kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
So you can kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance
Just let it fall out, out of my face
I never thought I'd ever hear me say
I just can't breathe without my baby
Ooh, come here, baby
So you can kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
I, inner, I bring to you through words I sing
My flaws, my dreams, and all from within
I am Ella Mai
'Cause I don't recognize a thing about it
That don't even matter, I'm just glad I got into the party
So I can feel your music in my body
'Cause you the only out of everybody
Who can deal with all my ways
I know I got some ways
But you control the flames
So I just wanna stay right here with you
It could be a room full of people, you still on my side
Look at how the whole world is searching, but I got mine
It's emotional, uncontrollable, all I think about is you
So if the tears wanna flood in my gates, let the water flow
Just let it fall out from my face
'Cause I never thought I'd ever hear me say
I just can't breathe without my baby
Ooh, you my baby
So come and kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
I don't even care, I'm nosy
Just keep me there, keep me in the moment
Seen a lot of things, but I never seen my spirit glowing
The way you do me got me outta body
'Cause you the only out of everybody
Who gon' go out of the way to show me all the ways
Can't control the flame
I just wanna stay right here with you
It could be a room full of people, you still on my side
Look at how the whole world is searching, but I got mine
It's emotional, uncontrollable, all I think about is you
So if the tears wanna flood in my gates, let the water flow
Just let it fall out, out from my face
I never thought I'd ever hear me say
I just can't breathe without my baby
Ooh, come here, baby
So you can kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
So you can kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance
Just let it fall out, out of my face
I never thought I'd ever hear me say
I just can't breathe without my baby
Ooh, come here, baby
So you can kiss up on me
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
As we dance close
Come and kiss up on me slow
As we dance close
I, inner, I bring to you through words I sing
My flaws, my dreams, and all from within
I am Ella Mai
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
Close Lyrics as written by Ella Mai Howell Dijon Isaiah Mcfarlane
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Peermusic Publishing, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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