Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
Hey
I'm sick of feeling I'm sinking
I'm getting so sick of thinking
'Cause it just makes me wanna stop
Wait
Can't figure out what I'm missing
And I forgot how to listen
To the things that I really want
I feel so small that I got it all but I can't abort
The ways are long but I'm too tired to open the door
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
I can't open up and call it off
Hey
I'm sick of dealing with people
And yet I know I'm their equal
No, I'm no better than anyone else
Hi
I wishin' no one can see me
And maybe life will be easy
If I learn how to let it go
I feel so small that I got it all but I can't abort (Oh, I can't abort)
The ways are long but I'm too tired to open the door
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
All up, I'll bet you tried to
Dig up and find a deeper meaning
You're thinking that is in a song
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
A cry for help, that's what you're thinking or you're wishing
Well maybe I just wanna vent
Don't break it down, just let it be what it will be
Just let me be a little discontent
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
I can't open up and call it off
I'm sick of feeling I'm sinking
I'm getting so sick of thinking
'Cause it just makes me wanna stop
Wait
Can't figure out what I'm missing
And I forgot how to listen
To the things that I really want
I feel so small that I got it all but I can't abort
The ways are long but I'm too tired to open the door
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
I can't open up and call it off
Hey
I'm sick of dealing with people
And yet I know I'm their equal
No, I'm no better than anyone else
Hi
I wishin' no one can see me
And maybe life will be easy
If I learn how to let it go
I feel so small that I got it all but I can't abort (Oh, I can't abort)
The ways are long but I'm too tired to open the door
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
All up, I'll bet you tried to
Dig up and find a deeper meaning
You're thinking that is in a song
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
A cry for help, that's what you're thinking or you're wishing
Well maybe I just wanna vent
Don't break it down, just let it be what it will be
Just let me be a little discontent
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
All up, and now my life is
All up, for everyone to break down
And think they've got it figured out
All up, my doors are locked up
No one is getting in
'Til I open up and call it off
I can't open up and call it off
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
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