Paradise Lost

It's 4 a.m. and I'm back in Hell
Where I belong, I guess I love to be
Well you're not here
Hey, what the fuck can I do?
You brought redemption and I pissed it all away
1,000 lifetimes, when I pushed this flaw
I live this way, at what chance I've got
To be forgiven, but the fucker fooled me
Into thinking I was doing it the right way
You kept on trying but I couldn't see that
Now I'm counting the cost
Hell, I was too fucked up to ever believe it
And now my paradise is lost
Fucked up with evil, that's what I am
I guess again, that's what I'll always be
Yeah, fuck I want it, no girl, I need it
'Cause he kept his deal with me
But you brought me something
I've never seen before
A light so bright, but I was blinded
Well, I forgot the deal I made
Thought I could give you what you wanted from me
I know that you kept on trying but I couldn't see that
And now I'm counting the cost
I was too fucked up to ever believe it
And now my paradise is lost
So, now I'm back in Hell and I'm burning
We made a deal and I'll let you be
But I'll always know as I go on sinning
That you're out there and you're free of me
I'm back in the dark, again...