So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
If I try my hardest
If I give it all I have
Do you think I could change
Do you think that I could grow
As I look back on all the events of last year
I wonder what the hell was I thinking
And I've got so much more to give
And I'm not giving up just yet
Please tell me
I'm not just wasting time
Just wasting time
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
I'm stuck in a rat race
If I run my farthest, do you think I'd be okay?
Leaving it all behind and changing my name
Or should I stay and face my fears
And the people I thought I could count on
Stay and face my fears
And you
Please tell me
I'm not just wasting time
Holding on to those who don't believe
Who don't believe
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
I'm stuck in a rat race
But I won't let myself fall down anymore
No I won't let myself fall down anymore
Go!
The world moves so quickly when I can't pick up the pace
I just keep telling myself, slow and steady wins the race
The world moves so quickly when I can't pick up the pace
I just keep telling myself, slow and steady wins the race
Slow and steady wins the race
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
1, 2, 3, 4!
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
I'm stuck in a rat race
But I won't let myself fall down anymore
No I won't let myself fall down anymore
Won't let myself fall down anymore
Anymore
If I give it all I have
Do you think I could change
Do you think that I could grow
As I look back on all the events of last year
I wonder what the hell was I thinking
And I've got so much more to give
And I'm not giving up just yet
Please tell me
I'm not just wasting time
Just wasting time
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
I'm stuck in a rat race
If I run my farthest, do you think I'd be okay?
Leaving it all behind and changing my name
Or should I stay and face my fears
And the people I thought I could count on
Stay and face my fears
And you
Please tell me
I'm not just wasting time
Holding on to those who don't believe
Who don't believe
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
I'm stuck in a rat race
But I won't let myself fall down anymore
No I won't let myself fall down anymore
Go!
The world moves so quickly when I can't pick up the pace
I just keep telling myself, slow and steady wins the race
The world moves so quickly when I can't pick up the pace
I just keep telling myself, slow and steady wins the race
Slow and steady wins the race
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
1, 2, 3, 4!
I never thought I'd be left alone to fend for myself
I guess you really can't trust anyone these days
I'm stuck in a rat race
But I won't let myself fall down anymore
No I won't let myself fall down anymore
Won't let myself fall down anymore
Anymore
Lyrics submitted by darkforce100
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