Ambivalence

I want to be the absolute best
Dreams of being the only one somehow
How's it going to be apart from all the rest
How can I wish away this feeling somehow
Eyes in trance
Oh my ambivalence
That turns me into someone else
Puts my mind on the brink then I crash
Only myself in ambivalence
All my life gets smashed
Waking up to the thought of someone uncertain
Then playing a song to put me back into sleep
Still don't feel as if I've really been hurting
Instead I never knew I was in so deep
Dismiss on the faces but my hearts on my sleeve
Tell me why nothing's going to plan
Travel a million places and stop when I please
The past months and few weeks getting out of hand
Eyes in trance
Oh my ambivalence
That turns me into someone else
Puts my mind on the brink then I crash
Only myself in ambivalence
Searching, singing through the blue room
My world blinks in a flash
Only myself in ambivalence
All my life gets smashed
I want to see my friends in California
Want to leave here with no doubts
Want to forget how much I withdrawal
Want to say that I have made it out
Want to forget how much I withdrawal
Want to say that I have made it out now
Where was I at for all of this time passing by
How come I never asked the little things like wondering why
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Eyes in trance
Oh my ambivalence
That turns me into someone else
Puts my mind on the brink then I crash
Only myself in ambivalence
All my life gets smashed
Searching, singing through the blue room
My world blinks in a flash
Only myself in ambivalence
All my life gets smashed
Eyes in trance
Oh my ambivalence
That turns me into someone else
Puts my mind on the brink then I crash
Only myself in ambivalence
All my life gets smashed