Nitrous Gas Lyrics
I'm dying to tell you that I'm dying here
Throw up the sickly joy and I'll swallow the sweet self loathing
I'm just dying to be unhappy again
Oh, I'll build my home
And if happiness won't come to me, hand me the nitrous gas
Go where the joyless bastard lives
He's dying to bring you down with him
Spit out the blue minor misery
I'm dying to bring you down with me
You can keep all of your oxygen hand me the nitrous gas
And if happiness won't live with me, I think I can live with that
You can keep all of your oxygen hand me the nitrous gas
This is an awesome song.
It's about making the best of being unhappy, maybe even enjoying it a little along the way.
Love this song. Nitrous gas is laughing gas, so since the dude isn't happy, he'll just breathe in some laughing gas instead and that'll be the closest thing he has to happiness.
Breathing in enough "laughing gas" without oxygen seems like it could kill you...Which is pretty interesting in relation to this song. He will either laugh half-heartedly or die trying to pretend. He doesn't want to listen to an uplifting (although possibly untrue) song of a gospel singer. He wants to listen to the heartbreakers. Although they are depressing, they seem true.
I think he's so unhappy he just wants to wallow. He really doesn't want to be happy. I think it's a stigma attached to depression. If you're depressed and you laugh people question if you're actually depressed and you end up feeling shitter than you did before you laughed. I think he just wants so stay unhappy because if he is any other way people won't believe that he was, but if he uses nitrous gas, he can say that's why he's laughing, he's still depressed but he has a reason to laugh.