The Depth of Self-Delusion

What might not be understood by western people is the fact of communists being in charge of the countries of middle and eastern Europe for almost half the century. That means in Poland too. What I do understand in "promiseland", "neverland", "neverending smiles" and such are the utopic ideals of communism. In reality most people who, literally, proselytized those ideals were hypocrites. They did not do that for good of people but for their own bonus. See the "I did not look good in RED" line. Many young people and children, were brought up in organisations simmilar to Scouting, but purely oriented on teaching ideals of communism, during those years. Partly because there was nothing else to do, partly because it was somehow politically correct, which could prevent problems for their life and lives of their relatives. Red is the most distinctive colour they wore. Red is a symbolic colour of evil by the way. Same it was for adults. Either they were part of communist party, and so their possibilities were normal to the point, unless they had acted or spoken against communist party, or they or their families were bullied by authorities. There was revolutionary slogan "who is not with us is against us". And thats how it has been. I see this song as theme to those who chose to live their lives without conforming to what party urged all to do and to be. Free-thinkers, Christians, artists, regular people whose was not the fault that party did not like them. More it might be theme to the Christians of those times. I see the line "One life was great, but another... No, I don't wanna live on the edge." as clear statement that if one chose to conform to communists, his life would be much easier, great, but at the cost of losing the life after life in heaven. Cooperating with Communists in those times could be easily compared to cooperating with World War II Nazis or selling your soul to the devil. It caused a lot of pain to the others.

This song definitely has a freethinking vibe; the rejecting of other's proclaimed "promised lands."

"One life was great, but another... no I don't want to live on the edge."

He's not willing to take a leap of faith, to live on the edge. He's built his life, or what others might call a wall of separation, but he feels safe and honest there, "nested and calm, without mask."

An interesting thing to note is the line, "I was chasing your shadow, not knowing I'd become your slave." If you've listened to Mariuz Duda's other work, namely with Lunatic Soul, you already know that it was very spiritually-heavy, with references to angels and afterlife, bright lights and dark places, and flying through consciousness. It's very different than what I hear in this song... I have to wonder if he's changed his mind, in these past few years.

I get the feeling that Mariuz is an agnostic or an atheist now, comfortable with his unknowing, and forever foreign to the notion of an "otherland, promisedland, hastenland, neverland, heaven, hell, etc..."

Just my two cents.

Pretty awesome lyrics for this album all around. The general vibe is of non-conformism; a certain cynicism towards contemporary life: fleeting relationships, consumerism, among others.

In this case, I get the feeling that the writer is talking about the realization that he no longer desires to pursue a life that is sold or presented to him as a "promised land".

"One little brick, then another, and I will build that wall anyway"

(Reference to Roger Waters? Perhaps too farfetched) In any case he prefers peaceful isolation to living something that he considers a lie.

I think two parts are key to the general feeling of looking contemporary life with a critical eye:

"Look around where we are, who we are What we always want Twenty-four, seven, three sixty-five Sometimes little more I was chasing your shadow, not knowing I'd become your slave"

To me, this is clearly a reference to the "frantic day by day" lives we live. What the hell do we want? Chasing a shadow (see mainstream - conformist fed ideal) to only become a "new generation slave".

And this one:

"I've said a farewell to never-ending smiles I did not look good in red From my place I can finally see how much of this shade I called myself was me, and what was left behind"

For me, saying farewell to never-ending smiles, is seeing how much of a lie is the whole "feel good, be happy and keep on living life like nothing happens" belief we are so made to believe. Now he sees what a lie, a shadow he himself was for believing that.

Just saying.

This is about bad relationships and how they change us.How sometimes we turn in something we don't like and how sometimes we choose a life that we don't like because we are too afraid to leave.

To me this song is about our president Trump and America

"I could be foreign forever to your otherland I could be foreign forevermore to your promiseland" ~`For me this means that mexicans are foreign and the promiseland is of course America

"One life was great, but another…" ~`Again this is about mexicans, whetere their life is ofc another..

"One little brick, then another, and I will build that wall anyway" ~`This is easy again it's about the wall that Trump is going to build

"Look around where we are, who we are What we always want Twenty-four, seven, three sixty-five Sometimes little more" ~`For me this is more like {Look around we are Americans living in America, and what we want is mexicans to pay for the wall.}

"Twenty-four, seven, three sixty-five Sometimes little more" ~`This maybe problematic for some but it's not rly once you write it down 24 7 365 + maybe little more. This is how much mexicans are going to pay for the wall