This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I woke up today surrounded by blackness
The small morning sun devoured the process
It's always been fun when I get a bit nervous
And it's hard to say, but I feel a bit weightless
The more that I admit I feel a bit anxious
The more I go on, the less I can face this
And those rotten things that live in our shadow
We walk on the line of death and the gallows
And hope that we clear a path we can follow
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright (it doesn't hurt that much)
When I was young, the world, it was smaller
The cities were vast, the buildings were taller
I felt really strong, my parents seemed stronger
My life has a way, it showers with greatness
Then takes it away, those pieces that made us
Then teaches you things you'd never imagine
We all get the same, the memories, the burdens
The pictures we made, they still form a pattern
They cautiously say, "Does it all matter?"
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright (it doesn't hurt that much)
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright (it doesn't hurt that much)
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright
The small morning sun devoured the process
It's always been fun when I get a bit nervous
And it's hard to say, but I feel a bit weightless
The more that I admit I feel a bit anxious
The more I go on, the less I can face this
And those rotten things that live in our shadow
We walk on the line of death and the gallows
And hope that we clear a path we can follow
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright (it doesn't hurt that much)
When I was young, the world, it was smaller
The cities were vast, the buildings were taller
I felt really strong, my parents seemed stronger
My life has a way, it showers with greatness
Then takes it away, those pieces that made us
Then teaches you things you'd never imagine
We all get the same, the memories, the burdens
The pictures we made, they still form a pattern
They cautiously say, "Does it all matter?"
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright (it doesn't hurt that much)
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright (it doesn't hurt that much)
It's the worst damn day (it doesn't hurt that much) of my life
I made a mess today (it doesn't hurt that much)
I'm alright
Lyrics submitted by DakotaFloyd
When I Was Young Lyrics as written by Tom Delonge Mark Hoppus
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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