Warren wanted a Beach Boys thing for this one, and Carl Wilson and Billy Hinsche came in, with Carl arranging the vocal parts. The other harmony vocalists (credited as the "Gentlemen Boys") were Jackson Browne, J.D. Souther, Zevon's longtime backers Waddy Wachtel and Jorge Calderon, and Linda Rondstadt/Stone Poneys guitarist Kenny Edwards.
Hard to believe I won't see you again
We were just fighting when winter began
The coldness of our words competing with the wind from the north
Still they make me shiver but in a very different way
The pages of the calendar kept turning away
I have some better words now, but it's too late to say them to you
My dream of all dreams and my hope of all hopes
Is only to tell you and make sure you know
How much I love you and how much I always did
And yes I know you loved me I could see it in your eyes
And it was in your struggle and it was in your mind
And it was in the smile you gave me when I was a kid
Feels like no one understands
And now my only chance
To talk to you is through my prayers
I only wanted to tell ya I care
Every night after and every day since
I find myself crying when the memory hits
Sometimes it knocks me down, sometimes I can just put it away
Down in my mind where I don't care to go
The pain of a lesson is letting me know
If you have love in your heart let it show while you can
Yes now I understand
But now my only chance
To talk to you is through my prayers
I only wanted to tell ya I care
I only wanted to tell ya I care
We were just fighting when winter began
The coldness of our words competing with the wind from the north
Still they make me shiver but in a very different way
The pages of the calendar kept turning away
I have some better words now, but it's too late to say them to you
My dream of all dreams and my hope of all hopes
Is only to tell you and make sure you know
How much I love you and how much I always did
And yes I know you loved me I could see it in your eyes
And it was in your struggle and it was in your mind
And it was in the smile you gave me when I was a kid
Feels like no one understands
And now my only chance
To talk to you is through my prayers
I only wanted to tell ya I care
Every night after and every day since
I find myself crying when the memory hits
Sometimes it knocks me down, sometimes I can just put it away
Down in my mind where I don't care to go
The pain of a lesson is letting me know
If you have love in your heart let it show while you can
Yes now I understand
But now my only chance
To talk to you is through my prayers
I only wanted to tell ya I care
I only wanted to tell ya I care
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Before a live performance on the EP Five Stories Falling, Geoff states “It’s about the last time I went to visit my grandmother in Columbus, and I saw that she was dying and it was the last time I was going to see her. It is about realizing how young you are, but how quickly you can go.”
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