Havoc

This song to me speaks about ridding oneself of bad habits. In many ways, it's almost reminiscent of Flavors of Entanglement and harkens back to its theme of hitting rock bottom coupled with the phoenix rising from the ashes. To me, this particular song illustrates how she still struggles with big challenges and repeats the same mistake ("I'm slipping again"...."affirm mea culpa for the millionth time"), but also her admission that while they do exist, they don't defeat her. It's a really beautiful song.

The melody of this song reminds me so much of Alanis' song "Not All Me" off her album So-Called Chaos. Maybe it would make an interesting mashup?

Anyway, the lyrics posted above are SO WRONG! Here are the correct lyrics:

Just when I thought I had handles on this I could soften my guard behind false confidence

Just when I found humble pie insipid exempt from this blind side and firmly in its grip

'Cause I'm seduced by reaction and under the influence

I'm slipping again I'm up to old tricks, off my wagon I have no defense I wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence

I get reduced by my own wilfullness as I reach for my usual god replacements

'Cause I am rich with sanction, and lax in my steps

I'm slipping again I'm up to old tricks, off my wagon I have no defense I wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence

If forgiveness is understanding then I offer mea culpa for the millionth time From this toppling house of cards of mine

I am beaten by me impulsiveness This uncanny foreshadowing of regret

'Cause I'm repulsed by restriction, at least that's my excuse

I'm slipping again I'm up to old tricks, off my wagon I have no defense I wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence

I'm slipping again I'm up to old tricks, off my wagon I have no defense I wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence

"About recovery from addiction, taking responsibility for slipping off the proverbial wagon"