So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Drown you out
And left you with a sound
We'll spoil good-nights
Replacing lullabies
How could they never notice
What they planted in your space
See you laughing in our picture
But I know it's out of frame
We barely cried
But she made it out alive
And I'm so proud
That you're in my hands now
If we grew up together
You will find it's not the same
I wanna jump inside that picture
Show you what you gave
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
Say her name into the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
She'll chase us though the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay
I'll never let them get closer
Or shower you with any blame
Now we dance in our own picture
Where the rules have changed
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
Say her name into the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
She'll chase us though the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay
And left you with a sound
We'll spoil good-nights
Replacing lullabies
How could they never notice
What they planted in your space
See you laughing in our picture
But I know it's out of frame
We barely cried
But she made it out alive
And I'm so proud
That you're in my hands now
If we grew up together
You will find it's not the same
I wanna jump inside that picture
Show you what you gave
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
Say her name into the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
She'll chase us though the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay
I'll never let them get closer
Or shower you with any blame
Now we dance in our own picture
Where the rules have changed
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
Say her name into the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay long enough
We can play with Bloody Mary
She'll chase us though the dark
Activate our nerve endings
If we stay
Lyrics submitted by Thylacine, edited by LucasCorso
Bloody Mary (Nerve Endings) Lyrics as written by Christopher Andrew Guanlao Brian Nolan Kalei Aubert
Lyrics © Word Collections Publishing
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I'm on board with those who think it's about a girl who grew up in an abusive home. The lines "See you laughing in a picture, but I know what's out of frame" refers to family pictures of her as a child, where she's seemingly happy, but the singer is saying he knows what happened when the camera wasn't there.
The next part ("You barely cried, but you made it out alive") means she stoically endured the abuse, but when she was finally able to get free, she did.
Then, "And I'm so proud that you're in my hands now," sounds kind of sinister at first, but it's really sincere, it's her husband saying that he really is proud of the fact that she survived her horrible childhood.
The chorus talks about the depression and self-loathing that she has to deal with as a victim. "Bloody Mary" is a game kids play where they lock themselves into a dark room, in front of a mirror, and "summon" the ghost of Bloody Mary. Typically the point is to freak themselves out, like telling ghost stories around a campfire. The keys to that reference are the fact that it's a totally self-inflicted horror - kids do this to themselves and sometimes get worked up into hysterics; and also that the effect of the game is similar to sensory deprivation, where your optic nerve starts playing tricks on you in the darkness, giving the illusion that you're seeing things that you can't possibly be seeing. So the chorus is really saying, "If we dwell on the horrors of the past it leads into self-inflicted depression." In effect, because she gets into these bouts of depression and dwells on her childhood, she's terrifying herself for no good reason, and more to the point, since "Bloody Mary" is just an illusion or trick, it's not real, and can't hurt her, just like her past can no longer hurt her, but she obsesses over the past anyway.
The other verses are expanding on the initial theme. "If we grew up together ... show you what you became" is saying he wishes he could go back into her childhood and tell her that no matter how horrible things are, her future is one of happiness. Then the next verse, "I'll never let them get closer, or shower you with any blame," is him saying he's there to protect her, and that her abusive family can't hurt her any more, while "Now we dance in our own picture where the rules have changed" refers to their wedding pictures (pictures of them dancing at their wedding), and that now that she's an adult and he's there to protect her, the rules have changed, and she's no longer subject to the rules and discipline that were used to terrorize her childhood.
I think you are mostly correct in your analysis, Tim, though I don't know that it is specifically a girl's past or a husband/wife thing. Plainly, the song is about the singer having a connection to someone who was traumatized in childhood. I disagree, though, with the idea that "playing with Bloody Mary" refers to dwelling on the past and living in "self-inflicted depression." The singer clearly is INVITING the other person to "stay" and "play with Bloody Mary." I interpret it to mean that the other person needs to face his/her past, revisit the horrors of childhood, in order to deal with them and get on with a better life. The singer will go through it with the other person, hence "we" not "you" can play with Bloody Mary. Activating nerve endings, in this context, equates to starting to feel again or starting to live again. <br /> <br /> As I've pointed out below, some of the lyrics posted here are wrong. It isn't "show you what you became," it is "show you a new game." Which is a continuance of the ongoing metaphors of pictures and games. The song is actually hopeful about the ability to heal.