This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Verse 1]
If it wasn't for cool Herc, hip hop wouldn't be created
That's bullshit, I would of created it tens years later
Niggas acting up till the guns is heard
I don't hear you poppin shit now, mums the word
And all you rapping niggas, what, that's all you got
Think you a thug now you doing songs with Pac
Gotta bullet in my stomach doctors scared to remove it
And 25 stitches above my dick to prove it
But I can't die, so I don't wear no vest
I'm like super nigga, gotta SF on my chest
Nigga I'll take a automatic and play Russian roulet
Just to collect, life is short expect my death
Told you once, told you twice
This is the last time you can boooooooop give me a flat line
Even if I bleed to death I can't die
Not even if I fell from ten stories high
Yo, I'ma rule the underground or get shot trying
No matter how many times I get hit with the hot iron
[Chorus]
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
[Verse 2]
I tried everything swallowed pills slit my wrist
Made my own brother shoot me, X-1 fuckin missed
Tried to paint the walls with my brain but the gun jammed
At my first shoot out, I stayed everyone ran
I want it rawwwwww, and more than ten different women
Locked myself in the garage with the Benz runnin'
As a kid, they had to watch me carefully
Tried to put the blow dryer in the bath with me
Everywhere I go, I hear voices, who calling me
Doc said my brain damaged but I don't see nothing wrong with me
Maybe that's why half the industry won't do a song with me
I walked amongst the dead
Talked to punks with lead
An eye for an eye
We can all go blind
All you niggas talking about you ain't scared to die
I feel nigga, cause I ain't scared to kill you nigga WHAT
I'ma rule the underground or get shot trying
No matter how many times I get hit with the hot iron
[Chorus]
You can't kill me {8X}
If it wasn't for cool Herc, hip hop wouldn't be created
That's bullshit, I would of created it tens years later
Niggas acting up till the guns is heard
I don't hear you poppin shit now, mums the word
And all you rapping niggas, what, that's all you got
Think you a thug now you doing songs with Pac
Gotta bullet in my stomach doctors scared to remove it
And 25 stitches above my dick to prove it
But I can't die, so I don't wear no vest
I'm like super nigga, gotta SF on my chest
Nigga I'll take a automatic and play Russian roulet
Just to collect, life is short expect my death
Told you once, told you twice
This is the last time you can boooooooop give me a flat line
Even if I bleed to death I can't die
Not even if I fell from ten stories high
Yo, I'ma rule the underground or get shot trying
No matter how many times I get hit with the hot iron
[Chorus]
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
I'm not die'n
What bring it I'm not die'n
[Verse 2]
I tried everything swallowed pills slit my wrist
Made my own brother shoot me, X-1 fuckin missed
Tried to paint the walls with my brain but the gun jammed
At my first shoot out, I stayed everyone ran
I want it rawwwwww, and more than ten different women
Locked myself in the garage with the Benz runnin'
As a kid, they had to watch me carefully
Tried to put the blow dryer in the bath with me
Everywhere I go, I hear voices, who calling me
Doc said my brain damaged but I don't see nothing wrong with me
Maybe that's why half the industry won't do a song with me
I walked amongst the dead
Talked to punks with lead
An eye for an eye
We can all go blind
All you niggas talking about you ain't scared to die
I feel nigga, cause I ain't scared to kill you nigga WHAT
I'ma rule the underground or get shot trying
No matter how many times I get hit with the hot iron
[Chorus]
You can't kill me {8X}
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