The Abandoned

Staring at the wall,
I never thought this would be so hard.
How could have I been so close
And never known you?
I never knew, I never knew you at all!
You will always be my father
But I hope you know,
It's your fault
I'll never know what that means.
You left a void
That never could be replaced.
I am dying inside but you will never see!
(I always had hoped
That you did not want it this way,
But no matter how hard I try
You pushed away.)
You said you loved me but...
(How was I supposed to know
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?)
You know I would let you in
But you threw everything away.
So tell me what did you get
From all of these years of pain?
You have no clue what I've been through,
But I guess that you wanted it that way!
(How was I supposed to know
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?)
If you would've been there,
If you would've stuck around.
If you would've been there
When I needed you,
You would've been-
You would've been so proud!
(How was I supposed to know
When you left here,
You left me here alone?
Do I ever even cross your mind,
Just for second?
Do you know I'm alive?)