This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Things are really weird right now
It seems all their dreams came true
Only they're home studying the day away
Or working hard for the FDA
Now you might wonder where that leaves me
I'm not complaining, just beginning to see.
I never really learned just how to aspire
Mostly self-deprecate, detaching the tire.
I was 15 looking for God,
Then I was 18 praying to lay.
Now I'm 26 with a head full of hair,
I'll be losing any day.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
I've been too busy kicking up dust
I'm just sifting through it now.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
At least I'm choking on something real this time
At least I'm finally learning how.
Things are really weird right now
I know I haven't called in weeks.
Between the barely there days
And "You know I can't stays"
I just don't know what to say.
The words right now are really hard to find
I'm running out of terms to use
My mind's either weary of the things I'll say
Or it's had enough of this self-abuse.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
I've been too busy kicking up dust
I'm just sifting through it now.
I pull the dirt in around the eye
Just pull the dirt all around
At least I'm choking on something real this time
At least I'm finally learning how.
I was 15 looking for God,
Then I was 18 praying to lay.
Now I'm 26 with a head full of hair,
I'll be losing any day.
I was 15 looking for God,
Then I was 18 praying to lay.
Now I'm 26 with a head full of hair,
I'll be losing any day.
Just pull the dirt all around
I've been too busy kicking up dust
I'm just sifting through it now.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
At least I'm choking on something real this time
At least I'm finally learning how.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
It seems all their dreams came true
Only they're home studying the day away
Or working hard for the FDA
Now you might wonder where that leaves me
I'm not complaining, just beginning to see.
I never really learned just how to aspire
Mostly self-deprecate, detaching the tire.
I was 15 looking for God,
Then I was 18 praying to lay.
Now I'm 26 with a head full of hair,
I'll be losing any day.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
I've been too busy kicking up dust
I'm just sifting through it now.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
At least I'm choking on something real this time
At least I'm finally learning how.
Things are really weird right now
I know I haven't called in weeks.
Between the barely there days
And "You know I can't stays"
I just don't know what to say.
The words right now are really hard to find
I'm running out of terms to use
My mind's either weary of the things I'll say
Or it's had enough of this self-abuse.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
I've been too busy kicking up dust
I'm just sifting through it now.
I pull the dirt in around the eye
Just pull the dirt all around
At least I'm choking on something real this time
At least I'm finally learning how.
I was 15 looking for God,
Then I was 18 praying to lay.
Now I'm 26 with a head full of hair,
I'll be losing any day.
I was 15 looking for God,
Then I was 18 praying to lay.
Now I'm 26 with a head full of hair,
I'll be losing any day.
Just pull the dirt all around
I've been too busy kicking up dust
I'm just sifting through it now.
I pull the dirt in around me,
I just pull the dirt all around.
At least I'm choking on something real this time
At least I'm finally learning how.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Things are really weird right now.
Lyrics submitted by emiilyiero
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Great version of a great song,
Should be:
"I pull the dirt in around me, I just pull the dirt all around."
Thank you! It's fixed now.
The correct line is: Mostly self-deprecate, detach, and retire.