April

It sounds like a perverse and seductive addiction. Something the subject knows is destructive, and yet that is what fuels his lust and desire. There is a complete lack of love and connection, like the lyrics say, it is a possessive relationship, and she doesn't much want or even like it.

I'd say it's a song having a lot to do with rape, or a non-consensual sexual moment. Spoken in the words of a predator.

I think that "she" is his soul and the song is about ... some sort of a drug or love eventually. Here is what I see in the lyrics as meaning (maybe):

"A deep engrained lust for possession" - sort of how strongly he is addicted to a drug in the process of abusing with it. "I need to watch her abused till I'm satisfied" - obviously he is trying to kill himself or destruct his soul through drug abuse. And the reason there could be a love that left him, which is why he is also sad and angry. "You mean nothing, nothing. No you mean nothing to me." - drugs mean nothing to him, its just the reason why he does it. "Makes me feel sick to know she's had enough." - he doesn't want to satisfy his drug addiction, but moreover finish himself off with drugs. Very sad, isn't it? "I hope you know, I live tonight through methadone highs." - I think that's where he reveals what's he talking about.

But the song is definitely not about drugs, but the reason why we use them - to ease some sort of pain or weakness we cannot bear. Well, It's just a point of view, maybe the artist didn't mean nothing special after all ...

According to an interview with Amos by Reflections of Darkness Magazine:

Amos: "...As for the lyrical element. Dan our vocalist was a policeman for many years, and without going into too much detail (as it trivialises the real person behind the story) the song is about one of the cases he was involved in."

He's never satisfied watching her abused. He'll never say a word of this. Beautiful song. Wonderful band.

The subject is sadistic.