Time in Heaven, Forever in Hell

Remember the sound when my phone hit the ground?
When you cursed out my name and said you never,
You never loved me.
But I thought you were joking,
so I asked you again
and you said it again like there wasn't a first.
And you paused with the silence so I know for damn sure
that you were not joking.
You really never loved me.
I thought about wasn't talked about
and I thought for days, and I thought out loud.
And I thought to myself:
"I wish I never met you."
And I always knew the banshees sang for me
and Seraphim would never rescue me.
I fell in love with a younger girl.
Her small sharp teeth with her hair in curls.
From Jersey to Scranton at least twice a week.
It was hell on the band but never bothered me.
I did it because I wanted to
under the pretense that you loved me too.
I couldn't argue when you wanted to leave.
I wanted you happy, I thought that's all that I need.
I offered my soul, I was just so tired.
Now these pills won't help me fall asleep.
These pills don't make me fall asleep.
My hell is a lonely place, (These pills won't help me fall asleep)
but I'll never forget your face. (These pills don't make me fall asleep)
Everything that I want to change (These pills won't help me fall asleep)
Reassures me that I won't be saved. (These pills don't make me fall asleep)