The Weight of Love Blinds Eyes

I wanted to believe that I could be anyone.
What I'm hoping when I'm not alone.
And obviously, there's no danger in having hope,
Having hope in anyone but me.
On a better day I would be way more awake(?).
Falling off, losing faith.
If it's all the same, I will just take my things anyway.

If this is love, if this is love,
Then I would run far, run fast, from me.
Forgive me if I leave the keys.

I knew I would let you down.
Between your confidants(?), how much do you trust me now?
No.
Well everyone else here sees your eyes, they can't perceive me.
I hate the sound of your voice, cause it still haunts me like a ghost.
But I know that I'm to blame, cause I've never been anyone else.
And I'm not numb cause I'm like you Marie (?)
Cause I know I'll never change.

If this is love, if this is love,
Then I would run far, run fast, from me.

I never said I was an angel.
There's a simple explanation for it all.
It's all my fault.
The snow melts away, I'm close to the ending now.
I don't want to be saved.

If this is love, if this is love,
Then I would run far, run fast, from me.
Forgive me if I leave the keys.