This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Can't see the other side of your face
But I know that it is mean
I can try to start over this week
But it can't change the way I feel
Can't see the other side of your dream
But I know that it is real
I can try to change the way I think
If it makes you happy then I will
Take me away
I don't want to stay
Can't you tell that I'm in pain?
But I know that it is mean
I can try to start over this week
But it can't change the way I feel
Can't see the other side of your dream
But I know that it is real
I can try to change the way I think
If it makes you happy then I will
Take me away
I don't want to stay
Can't you tell that I'm in pain?
Lyrics submitted by kittenchowmein
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This song. Just great. I'm a little damaged in the mind department so I could be biased, because most everything goes straight to depression in my head...but when I read these lyrics, and hear the way they're sung, it just sounds so hopeless. Like she's just done. And she feels bad because of the people who love her, who are trying to help her, when they don't understand how bad she wants to go.
"I could try to start over this week/But it couldn't change the way I feel." That's my favorite line. For me, its about missing so many days in school that you just feel buried and you can't get out...like there's no point in trying to catch up and restart. And even when I do get on track, I'm still fucking miserable. I still hate myself, I'm still alone when I get home, and I have nothing. But then I think of my mom, my sister, my brother in law. I think of music. TV. It's pathetic, but if wanting to survive until the next episode of Glee or the next album from Lady Gaga is going to keep me from killing myself, then you're fucking right I'm going to wait. But it's still hard to focus on algebra and the French Revolution when your life is so fucking empty and you feel like you're nothing. When other people have it so much worse and you cry about pointless things. I may not have a terrible life, or be homeless, or afraid to walk out of my home, but I'm not...happy, either.
"I could try to change the way I think/If it makes you happy then I will."
Problems that are invisible and not in your face can be easily ignored. These problems in my head can be fixed for you but they will always be there for me.