So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Throwing up my hands a little bit
Making your demands and giving it just the right control to manifest your goal
Blowing in the wind I fought off my dad's visited sins
Well, sort of, he's still playing a role but he ain't got my soul
Taking out the trash you've given
Spending all the cash, you're living high above the clouds, breaking all our vows
Saw you in the dark the other day, friends tell me you're great, why wouldn't they?
Why you still so loud if you're living in "the now" today?
Babe. I'm just scared
See you at a meeting or somewhere
Your eyes are defeating me here
I still feel the pain; I still feel the same
Your smile is genuine, or something
For a while you let me in but nothing constant
Once remains and parts of you have changed
Okay
Babe, I'm just scared
And I get scared of life
And I get scared of getting older without
I get scared of time
I get scared of the words that slip out of my mouth
Babe, I'm just scared
You smile from cheek to cheek and everyone tells me I should speak
But maybe I'm seeking something new, something's coming through
Our love was a gift, well to me it was
I ain't reframing it, that's because no matter what you do I will always love you, babe
Babe, I'm just scared
Making your demands and giving it just the right control to manifest your goal
Blowing in the wind I fought off my dad's visited sins
Well, sort of, he's still playing a role but he ain't got my soul
Taking out the trash you've given
Spending all the cash, you're living high above the clouds, breaking all our vows
Saw you in the dark the other day, friends tell me you're great, why wouldn't they?
Why you still so loud if you're living in "the now" today?
Babe. I'm just scared
See you at a meeting or somewhere
Your eyes are defeating me here
I still feel the pain; I still feel the same
Your smile is genuine, or something
For a while you let me in but nothing constant
Once remains and parts of you have changed
Okay
Babe, I'm just scared
And I get scared of life
And I get scared of getting older without
I get scared of time
I get scared of the words that slip out of my mouth
Babe, I'm just scared
You smile from cheek to cheek and everyone tells me I should speak
But maybe I'm seeking something new, something's coming through
Our love was a gift, well to me it was
I ain't reframing it, that's because no matter what you do I will always love you, babe
Babe, I'm just scared
Lyrics submitted by bananahero
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