August, 1980

I fell in love
At second sight
At the end of the night
I told you you’re beautiful
Yea oh I wanted too
Days are getting colder
I felt the winter strangle the fall
Your birthday, then Christmas
Another year has come and gone
Then it was spring
And I couldn’t wait
To take you out dancing
But the sickness, the darkness, consumed my forsaken soul
And then it was June
But you weren’t around
I wanted to find you
You told me not to look so damn hard but I did
Like you
Right from the start
You’re baby teeth just chewing and gnawing my heart
You just wouldn’t let it go
I didn’t want you to
I shrugged off my amour, my weapons. And denounced my faith
I’m coming to get you, God be damned if he gets in my way
Cause if he does
I’ll cut him in thirds
I’ll cough up a prayer for him
My blood damns you father, the son, and the Holy Ghost
Then I’ll wage war
Against anyone
That dares to stop me from
I’ll find you. I’ll rescue you from the light, my love
Fell the heart of their blood on the side of my throat
I can’t get their taste off my tongue
I chewed through the bones, killed the kids, burned their homes
I felt their sharp soot in my lungs
You told me no
You wanted to leave
Because you couldn’t love me
But baby, it’s too late, they’re all dead, what the hell did I do?
What if you stayed?
What if you did?
What if you wanted to?
I’m sorry I loved you, but it’s all I think about