This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
If I invent a weather,
That could defy all the clouds,
Would people stop wondering whether it will rain.
'Cause time spent speculating, to me,
Is time just wasted, to me,
Is time just lost for other games.
If I could turn back all of our days,
Would you still know my face,
Would you still know my face.
And if I could turn back all of these years,
Would all of our moments be buried by fear,
buried by fear.
Could I invent a muscle,
To pump life around my bones,
To beat instead of this heart shape beast I loath.
For surely being heartless,
Would avoid all of those things,
The poets claim to be the route of all.
If I could turn back all of our days,
Would you still know my face,
Would you still know my face.
And if I could turn back all of these years,
Would all of our moments be buried by fear,
buried by fear.
Fear to laugh,
And fear to cry,
And fear of knowing what it means to die.
And fear of hoping,
And fear of choking,
And fear of loving.
Fear of trying,
To be someone that you're not,
An being caught out,
And being left at a loss.
And fear of knowing,
That these feeling deep inside,
Are always better bottled,
Than hurt so much to hide.
'Cause all you want to do,
Is shout out that you're scared,
And take comfort in the fact,
That maybe someone else is scared too.
But what if it's just me,
What if no one else is fearful,
It's just you,
And it's just me.
If I invent a secret,
Will you keep it to yourself,
Will you keep it locked up in your mouth,
And will you never spit it out.
If I tell you that I love you,
That you're the one for me,
Although we haven't spoken for so very many weeks.
And if I tell you that I hate you,
That you've made into a shell,
I am pretty on the outside,
But inside me there is hell.
For you can hear the waves,
And you can hear the sea,
But in reality,
It's a beauty you can't see.
And I'm down on my knees,
Down on my knees.
If I invent a secret,
If I invent a secret,
If I invent a secret,
If I invent a secret.
If I invent a secret,
Will you keep it to yourself,
And will you keep it locked up in your mouth,
And will you never spit it out.
That could defy all the clouds,
Would people stop wondering whether it will rain.
'Cause time spent speculating, to me,
Is time just wasted, to me,
Is time just lost for other games.
If I could turn back all of our days,
Would you still know my face,
Would you still know my face.
And if I could turn back all of these years,
Would all of our moments be buried by fear,
buried by fear.
Could I invent a muscle,
To pump life around my bones,
To beat instead of this heart shape beast I loath.
For surely being heartless,
Would avoid all of those things,
The poets claim to be the route of all.
If I could turn back all of our days,
Would you still know my face,
Would you still know my face.
And if I could turn back all of these years,
Would all of our moments be buried by fear,
buried by fear.
Fear to laugh,
And fear to cry,
And fear of knowing what it means to die.
And fear of hoping,
And fear of choking,
And fear of loving.
Fear of trying,
To be someone that you're not,
An being caught out,
And being left at a loss.
And fear of knowing,
That these feeling deep inside,
Are always better bottled,
Than hurt so much to hide.
'Cause all you want to do,
Is shout out that you're scared,
And take comfort in the fact,
That maybe someone else is scared too.
But what if it's just me,
What if no one else is fearful,
It's just you,
And it's just me.
If I invent a secret,
Will you keep it to yourself,
Will you keep it locked up in your mouth,
And will you never spit it out.
If I tell you that I love you,
That you're the one for me,
Although we haven't spoken for so very many weeks.
And if I tell you that I hate you,
That you've made into a shell,
I am pretty on the outside,
But inside me there is hell.
For you can hear the waves,
And you can hear the sea,
But in reality,
It's a beauty you can't see.
And I'm down on my knees,
Down on my knees.
If I invent a secret,
If I invent a secret,
If I invent a secret,
If I invent a secret.
If I invent a secret,
Will you keep it to yourself,
And will you keep it locked up in your mouth,
And will you never spit it out.
Lyrics submitted by Ladyboy25
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"Fear to laugh, And fear to cry, And fear of knowing what it means to die.
And fear of hoping, And fear of choking, And fear of loving."
Youre so scared of the person and scared that you know what it is almost like to die but you still have some feelings for the person.
And this line is so haunting to me, I can see myself in it, amazing lyrics,
"And if I tell you that I hate you, That you've made into a shell, I am pretty on the outside, But inside me there is hell."