Elements

Sadly, I can relate to this song all too well. My gf and I were in a very tumultuous relationship. We we're young, excited, confused, and simply going with the flow of life. It was the happiest time of my life. To simplify, she was my first, and everything turned from happiness and bliss to heartache and dispair within a split second. She discovered she was pregnant and immediately was overcome with tears. I was in complete shock. Failing to comfort her due to my mind racing with the thought that my entire life is at risk of changing completely, and judging her reaction she felt the same way. She immediately called her best friend and told her and did not want to talk to me even though I didn't want to leave her side she said she needed time alone. I left frustrated and felt worthless. She cared for her friends opinions over mine even though we thought we were in love when such an event took place our world was shaken. My family is all Christian and would be devastated if I was to have a child out of marriage, and we both had yet to start our careers still finishing school. Even though I regret it every day she had an abortion and I neglected telling any of my family and have kept it a secret til this day... I fell into a deep depression for nearly a year and I spoke to no one. I worked and tried to be independent and make a life for myself. She finished school and moved out of the city beginning her career and moving on with her life. I have been single ever since and can't seem to get over this tragedy even though its been over 3 years... We didn't talk for a couple years because we both assumed that we were mad at each other when in reality neither was mad. The line "I left you in the cold until you shook" hits me hard because that's exactly what happened but I still never hold it against her because I blame myself. I've been called a masochist but I reply she's worth the pain. My hope is that one day we will let each other back in even though our history is so hard to look at. I pray we face it with courage because the love we had was a once in a lifetime experience... "Oh the elements I do not fear but I fall apart when you appear cause you are the greatest...the greatest disaster."