Lover Dearest

When I saw the guys in concert a few nights ago, Josh gave a clear explanation of the meaning of this song.

It goes something like, "This song means a lot to me. When I was seventeen years old, I was battling a heroin addiction and was put in a rehab centre. One of the things they tell us to do is to write a love letter to our drug, and it makes you realize how much you need the drug, or you think you need it, and how fucked up it is. I took that letter and made it into a song called Lover Dearest."

Amazing performance.

This song just kinda makes me feel better.. knowing people who struggle in life can go from that to fortune and fame.. and not be afraid to share their past with fans is amaizng.. I like stars that don't feel thee need ot hide everything

It's just beautiful

I'm speechless. This song is beautiful.

When I saw the guys in concert last week, Josh josh told everyone what this song was about "3 years ago I was a heroin addict and was put in a rehab center. One of the things they told us to do is write a love letter to our drug of choice, and it makes you realize how much you need the drug, or you think you need it. I took that letter and made it into a song i was going to put it onto the first cd , the words were there we just didn't have the music for it yet, so now i made it into a full song and called it Lover Dearest."

This song is about Josh's addiction to heroin. Through out the song he says how he loves it, but that it should leave him.

It's really a beautiful and inspiring song, and he really made the right decision. I love Marianas Trench so much because of their amazing songs.

More relationship reflections...

This place is a hole, but I don't want to go. I wish we could stay here forever alone. This time that we waste, but i still love your taste. Don't let him take my place, don't just sit there.

A part of me really didn't want things to be done and wanted to stay with him forever. We wasted so much time together, but I enjoyed every minute wasted away with him. I didn't want anyone to take my place, but I knew things weren't going anywhere with us and that I couldn't sit there any longer.

Sometimes I wish you would leave me. I'm not sick of you yet, is that as good as it gets, I'll just hide it, or i could slip into you. Its so easy to come back into you.

Like a drug, I was addicted to the love we had. I felt like I could never get sick of him, but at the same time, things weren't getting better. I kept hiding who I was, as it was easy to stay and do nothing than say something for fear of being let go of.

I stared for awhile, and waited for words, Seen but not heard and struggled to try. My tongue's turning black, but I'll take you back. You're still the best more or less, I guess. I guess. Don't you leave me

For a while, I did stay, waiting for the words to come, struggling deep inside. I wasn't being treated the best, but I kept taking him back like it was no big deal. I didn't want him to leave me, yet I could already feel him drifting away.

It hurts me to say that it hurts me to stay. And it might be alright if you go. It hurts me to say that I want you to stay, but it might be alright if you go. So leave me'

It really was hard to finally open up to him and let him know how I was feeling, but it had to be done. At the end of the day, all of the nights spent crying into my pillow case was only hurting myself and so, as much as I wanted him to stay, I knew that I had to let go of him and all that we had.

Sometimes I think that The bitter in you, and the quitter in me, is the bitter in you and the quitter in me. The bitter in you, and the quitter in me, is the better in you and the quitter in me. The bitter in you, and the quitter in me, is better than the both of us.

I don't know how to explain these last few lines, but I guess things are better now that we are no longer in a relationship together.

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this song is so beautiful. watching it live with josh at the keyboards is indeed amazing.

innit it's bigger than the both of us not better

I think this song is deffinetly there best. the meaning behind it is beautiful,the lyrics are great, and everything about it is just amazing. i cant stress enough how perfect it is. When ever i listen to this song i cry because i suffer from anorexia and this song to me can be related to that. The lyrics to me are as if im talking to "Ana". im sure you all know what i mean haha.i relate to it in a different way. but this songs beautiful. Josh has talent. ive never heard a band/singer with lyrics so powerful.

"this place is a hole, but I don't wanna go" He knows that he will get nowhere in his addiction, but he can't just give it up.

"I wish we could stay here forever alone" He wants to be with the numbness that comes with the use of heroin without his concipus telling him it's bad.

"this time that we waste but I still love your taste" He knows that he isn't going to get anywhere, but he loves of too much to stop of let to of his drug.

"Don't let him take my place don't just sit there" He wants someone to helpl him to get over his drug addiction an eating disorder "sometimes I wish you would leave me, woaa, I'm not sick of you yet" Sometimes he wants his addiction or eating disorder to just go away, but then doubts and realizes he still wants it.

"I stared for a while and waited for words seen but not heard and struggle to try" -he was waiting for something to help him get through it, but nothing ever came. He was struggling to get through it.

"and my tounges turning black but I'll tale you back" -his addiction is killing him but he's still not willing to give it up yet.

"you're still the best more of less I guess" -the drug will still always make him feel better, no matter what the amount is.

"it hurts me to say that it hurts me to stay and it might be alright if you go" It bothers him that he can't live without it, but he knows it would be better without it,

"it hurts me to say that I want you to stay but it might be alright if you go" It bothers him that he needs the drug or he can't get over his eating disorder but it would be ok if it didn't go away.

"Sometimes I think that the bitter in you and the quitter in me is the bitter in you and the quitter in me.... Is bigger than the both of us" -the after feeling of vein high is the bitter, and that feeling makes him wanna quit smoking/shooting (whichever he was doing) and that it is bigger than his addiction and bigger than himself.

"I'll just hide it" He'll hide his addiction or eating disorder from everyone

"I stared for a while and waited for words, seen but not heard" He waited for the words to come to ask for help,