This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I held on until I felt like the tip of my fingers were being ground to the bone
Oh god, it felt like my heart was being crushed again
But now we grew to hold our heads up as tall as the skylines
And now we're going separate ways, this is a consistent change, but love wont let me drop
I hope that someday in your apartment.. That was the way I felt, someday my words will tear you down
When I cross your mind, I'll cross your mind. I highly doubt that you will miss me, and it's still the same for you
Remember when we were falling in love? We were young. It was easy then to make mistakes.
Now I will go, and I will hold to the people I value, and someday soon this all will change.
Driving around at 2 AM breaking glass, well did you think of all the damage that you've done and did it hurt you? Obsessive dancing over the summer, well I will never say I'm sorry 'cause you're nothing to belong to
Shade in the colors of the sunset red and gold, the hills are dancing now, reminding us to never grow old. Cold stares the wristwatch time.
I hate that I regret trying so hard, and we don't talk because I'm through with hoping we can go back to when you loved me like you love yourself now.
You were sixteen when I was where you're right now, so I understand that you're just trying to find yourself
I spent all winter building strength because I promised myself I'd be happier this summer.
Oh god, it felt like my heart was being crushed again
But now we grew to hold our heads up as tall as the skylines
And now we're going separate ways, this is a consistent change, but love wont let me drop
I hope that someday in your apartment.. That was the way I felt, someday my words will tear you down
When I cross your mind, I'll cross your mind. I highly doubt that you will miss me, and it's still the same for you
Remember when we were falling in love? We were young. It was easy then to make mistakes.
Now I will go, and I will hold to the people I value, and someday soon this all will change.
Driving around at 2 AM breaking glass, well did you think of all the damage that you've done and did it hurt you? Obsessive dancing over the summer, well I will never say I'm sorry 'cause you're nothing to belong to
Shade in the colors of the sunset red and gold, the hills are dancing now, reminding us to never grow old. Cold stares the wristwatch time.
I hate that I regret trying so hard, and we don't talk because I'm through with hoping we can go back to when you loved me like you love yourself now.
You were sixteen when I was where you're right now, so I understand that you're just trying to find yourself
I spent all winter building strength because I promised myself I'd be happier this summer.
Lyrics submitted by ambivalent
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