So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
So sick of hearing your words all I can hear you say
Is how you want me to live my life a different way
I'm gonna pack all my things, I'm gonna do it
Just watch me, watch me
I'm like a rat in a cage, I'm about to lose it all
And I ain't gonna give up until I'm standing tall
I'm gonna throw it all in, just get it over with
Watch me, watch me
?Cause life is way too short
And I can't wait no more
Here I go! I'm gone! I'm going!
I'm so over you and I don't care
And I won't look back ?cause I know if I do I won't make it
Forgive me I can't take it anymore
So sick of falling apart and crawling back again
So sick of playing the games that I can never win
I've really had it, s-so so sick of it
Watch me, just watch me
?Cause life is way too short
And I can't wait anymore
Here I go! I'm gone! I'm going!
I'm so over you and I don't care
And I won't look back ?cause I know if I do I won't make it
Forgive me I can't take it anymore
I won't look back
I won't look back no more
So here I go! I'm gone! I'm going!
I'm so over you and I don't care
And I won't look back ?cause I know if I do I won't make it
Forgive me, I can't take it anymore
Is how you want me to live my life a different way
I'm gonna pack all my things, I'm gonna do it
Just watch me, watch me
I'm like a rat in a cage, I'm about to lose it all
And I ain't gonna give up until I'm standing tall
I'm gonna throw it all in, just get it over with
Watch me, watch me
?Cause life is way too short
And I can't wait no more
Here I go! I'm gone! I'm going!
I'm so over you and I don't care
And I won't look back ?cause I know if I do I won't make it
Forgive me I can't take it anymore
So sick of falling apart and crawling back again
So sick of playing the games that I can never win
I've really had it, s-so so sick of it
Watch me, just watch me
?Cause life is way too short
And I can't wait anymore
Here I go! I'm gone! I'm going!
I'm so over you and I don't care
And I won't look back ?cause I know if I do I won't make it
Forgive me I can't take it anymore
I won't look back
I won't look back no more
So here I go! I'm gone! I'm going!
I'm so over you and I don't care
And I won't look back ?cause I know if I do I won't make it
Forgive me, I can't take it anymore
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This song is about her leaving home back in Ireland. She wanted to show the world her music and her family wouldnt allow it. Until she finally got fed up and left to move to New York and become a singer. Watch the video on youtube, she explains it all. Introducing Lesley Roy