This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Sleeping in and out of an ice bath
No warmth, no life without
It's too much, my arms, my legs are wood, unconscious trees with roots deep in the ground
We will all be out, soon, an ocean ringed with tile.
I know that's not your style but it certainly will be mine if I can't make this right
So please, please, please, release me.
Can you hear my faintest breath, is it amplified?
The number that I've become will put you inside
I've got a message that I must relay
No, I can't delay it one more time (it's not going well)
It is desperate, can you relate, can you please, please relate? (I'm not holding up)
I am trapped, I'm stuck here on this bathroom floor and I don't have much more hope or pride
No air, no food (but I'm sure that I'm still alive..)
Just open your eyes, your dead ones (all ashes on the floor)
I will never need you more, just open your eyes, your dead ones.
No warmth, no life without
It's too much, my arms, my legs are wood, unconscious trees with roots deep in the ground
We will all be out, soon, an ocean ringed with tile.
I know that's not your style but it certainly will be mine if I can't make this right
So please, please, please, release me.
Can you hear my faintest breath, is it amplified?
The number that I've become will put you inside
I've got a message that I must relay
No, I can't delay it one more time (it's not going well)
It is desperate, can you relate, can you please, please relate? (I'm not holding up)
I am trapped, I'm stuck here on this bathroom floor and I don't have much more hope or pride
No air, no food (but I'm sure that I'm still alive..)
Just open your eyes, your dead ones (all ashes on the floor)
I will never need you more, just open your eyes, your dead ones.
Lyrics submitted by churchgonewild
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From my understanding of this song, it's describing the death of Jean-Paul Marat (also on the album cover). It's probably using his death as a metaphor, but I'm not going to get in to that because it's mostly all subjective. Here's a line-by-line interpretation of how I see it relating to JPM:
/ / Sleeping in and out of an ice bath / / No warmth, no life without
JPM had a deliberating skin condition for the three years leading up to his assassination. He spent the majority of this time in an ice bath as it was the only thing that would soothe his condition.
/ / It's too much. My arms, my legs are wood / / unconscious trees with roots deep in the ground
Once again describing the skin condition and how, being confined to the tub, his diseased limbs "rooted" him to where he was.
/ / We will all be out, soon, an ocean ringed with tile. / / I know that's not your style but it certainly will be mine if I can't make this right.
/ / So please, please, please, release me.
Ocean ringed with tile = obviously bathtub. The other lines could have a lot of different meanings so I'm not going to attempt it.
/ / Can you hear my faintest breath, is it amplified? / / The number that I've become will put you inside.
At this point in the song the assassination has already taken place and Marat is dying. The amplification of his final words ("Help me, my dear friend!") could either refer to the reverberating effect of screaming in a bathroom, or rather something that would be amplified through history (they're pretty famous last words).
"The number that I've become will put you inside" could refer to his assassin's quote "I killed one man to save 100,000." The rest of the song is pretty self-explanatory; it's describing how it must have felt to bleed to death in a friends arms on your bathroom floor, something I think we can all relate to.