So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
When I look in the mirror I know not who I see
It's hopeless, it's hopeless
But I'm not sorry for what that I've done
They had it coming, we all die someday
I always do what the voices tell me to do
It's always easier to kill when your already dead inside
Lock me up cause I've lost my fucking mind
Rock back and forth, it kills me, it thrills me
Rock back and forth, to see you dead
Destroying everything I'm bathing in your blood
And when you try there will be no one to hear you scream
Reach out to me
When I killed them all they begged for life but I took it away
Now here I am scratching all the paint off the walls again
I always do what the voices tell me to do
The rain is a welcoming promise that tomorrow will be worse
Than today and forever we'll sing forever
Please give me something to believe in
I feel as if my minds slipping
I can't help feeling my life's going to end
Rock back and forth, it kills me, it thrills me
Rock back and forth, to see you dead
Destroying everything I'm bathing in your blood
And when you try there will be no one to hear you scream
Reach out to me
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god what the fuck have I done [3×]
It's hopeless, it's hopeless
But I'm not sorry for what that I've done
They had it coming, we all die someday
I always do what the voices tell me to do
It's always easier to kill when your already dead inside
Lock me up cause I've lost my fucking mind
Rock back and forth, it kills me, it thrills me
Rock back and forth, to see you dead
Destroying everything I'm bathing in your blood
And when you try there will be no one to hear you scream
Reach out to me
When I killed them all they begged for life but I took it away
Now here I am scratching all the paint off the walls again
I always do what the voices tell me to do
The rain is a welcoming promise that tomorrow will be worse
Than today and forever we'll sing forever
Please give me something to believe in
I feel as if my minds slipping
I can't help feeling my life's going to end
Rock back and forth, it kills me, it thrills me
Rock back and forth, to see you dead
Destroying everything I'm bathing in your blood
And when you try there will be no one to hear you scream
Reach out to me
Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god what the fuck have I done [3×]
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Destroying Everything Lyrics as written by Chris Cerulli
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