So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
All of these things I try to do
all of my rage I aim at you
sometimes my eyes go wild and I feel like I'm lost in time
and sometimes I raise my head and look to the sky for consolation
for all the love I give, I get nothing
for all the love I show, you get colder
and I spend all of my time again with you
and I have chains around my heart again cause of you
you've taken all I've known with you for sure
looking down at you again in fear
I lose my mind, escape and try to run
It turns my heart into a ball of fire
feels like I'm getting a fit. nothing's moving, even if I run
don't look at my mirror, it's turning blacker by the hour
all of my rage I aim at you
sometimes my eyes go wild and I feel like I'm lost in time
and sometimes I raise my head and look to the sky for consolation
for all the love I give, I get nothing
for all the love I show, you get colder
and I spend all of my time again with you
and I have chains around my heart again cause of you
you've taken all I've known with you for sure
looking down at you again in fear
I lose my mind, escape and try to run
It turns my heart into a ball of fire
feels like I'm getting a fit. nothing's moving, even if I run
don't look at my mirror, it's turning blacker by the hour
Lyrics submitted by Thorond0r
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