This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Messages to God begin in pregap:] “My wish is just…just selfish, maybe ignorant…but I beg you to put back the sense in my life.”
“A-Are you there? I.. I.. I just called to see if you're there.
Sometimes I feel happy and sometimes I hate you…
mostly, I just wonder if you're there?
A-Are you there?”
“God! If you are love, then why are we subjected to an increasing injustice throughout the world?
Do you show us love by tormenting us?
It doesn't make any sense.”
[Messages to God:] “I just want you to speak to me...
“I'm still waiting for you God; I pray because this hell to be finished. Goodbye, God. Goodbye to you all.”
“I don't trust in any God. I don't know who God is, but I know what God should be...”
“Oh, take a look here, take a good look at what you've created!”
“Hi, God. This is Lorenzo, and I want to ask you something: Why life is so hard? Why love is so cruel? Why I can't really be me? Not someone else, just want to be me...
Hey, God. It's Fiambio. I just call to thank you for being with me when life seems to fall apart. You carried me through my darkest hours and I'm very grateful for that. Thank you...
"Hi, God. It's me, from Earth. I know you haven't returned any of my previous call, but maybe you were simply not there. But here it goes again: I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to be part of this world. But didn't you also give us people the mind to pursue and question? So...where are you? And where’ve you been when we needed you the most?
"It's funny speaking. I must be drunk or far away, for I no longer believe in you anymore. So I thought you are non-existent. ‘Cause I figured this out. For all the harm and the grieving that you bring into this world…either you're a cruel entity for not changing things, or you don't exist."
"Please tell me why these horrible things happen! Why did those two towers have to fall, and how can you let it happen? Does there have to be such hatred in this world? Why must society struggle so hard for tolerance?"
"I prayed every day for weeks now. Why won't you answer my prayers? Prove to me and so many others why I should continue to pray. I have faith in my friends and my family, isn't that enough?"
"Hello... Hello?
Hmmm...
[Japanese:] Shinjiteru? Shinjiteitai?
“Do you believe? Do you want to keep believing?”
[Dutch:] Wie ben ik? Wie ben jij?
"Who am I? Who are you?"
[Greek:] ?
"Please save dad, and please save mum."
"Please God, if you exist, help me believe that the world is real, that I am real, and that everything is real. That we are more than just a coincidence."
"This world is what we can give."
"Speak to me. I won't ask you to save me. I just want you to speak to me."
"Hey...Did I apologize to you for...you know...I just want to say I'm sorry and...thank you. Oh! And only one more thing: Please, help me fly."
"Please God, take me away from here. I can't take anymore. They're always devouring me...I'm so lost. I'm so lost...God?"
[Japanese] "Kamisama-san, naze sensou? Naze shi? Naze kiga? Naniwodesuka? Omaeha naniwotameniiru? Sayonara."
“Dear God, why is there war? Why is there death? Why is there starvation? For what? What is the reason of your existence? Goodbye.”
[Greek] Ghia su, Thee. Anarotieme, ti imaste? Poso simantiki s' afto ton kosmo? Pu pigenoume?
"Hello, God. I wonder...what are we? What's our importance in this world? Where are we going to?"
"Uhh...Yeah, uhh... listen God...umm...I just want to say a really big thank-you on behalf of...uhh, everybody. And...thanks for getting the whole thing started and...for getting it off the ground, but...I think that this time, we have really screwed things up, and I am so, so sorry."
"I need you now. I need you."
“A-Are you there? I.. I.. I just called to see if you're there.
Sometimes I feel happy and sometimes I hate you…
mostly, I just wonder if you're there?
A-Are you there?”
“God! If you are love, then why are we subjected to an increasing injustice throughout the world?
Do you show us love by tormenting us?
It doesn't make any sense.”
[Messages to God:] “I just want you to speak to me...
“I'm still waiting for you God; I pray because this hell to be finished. Goodbye, God. Goodbye to you all.”
“I don't trust in any God. I don't know who God is, but I know what God should be...”
“Oh, take a look here, take a good look at what you've created!”
“Hi, God. This is Lorenzo, and I want to ask you something: Why life is so hard? Why love is so cruel? Why I can't really be me? Not someone else, just want to be me...
Hey, God. It's Fiambio. I just call to thank you for being with me when life seems to fall apart. You carried me through my darkest hours and I'm very grateful for that. Thank you...
"Hi, God. It's me, from Earth. I know you haven't returned any of my previous call, but maybe you were simply not there. But here it goes again: I want to thank you for giving me the opportunity to be part of this world. But didn't you also give us people the mind to pursue and question? So...where are you? And where’ve you been when we needed you the most?
"It's funny speaking. I must be drunk or far away, for I no longer believe in you anymore. So I thought you are non-existent. ‘Cause I figured this out. For all the harm and the grieving that you bring into this world…either you're a cruel entity for not changing things, or you don't exist."
"Please tell me why these horrible things happen! Why did those two towers have to fall, and how can you let it happen? Does there have to be such hatred in this world? Why must society struggle so hard for tolerance?"
"I prayed every day for weeks now. Why won't you answer my prayers? Prove to me and so many others why I should continue to pray. I have faith in my friends and my family, isn't that enough?"
"Hello... Hello?
Hmmm...
[Japanese:] Shinjiteru? Shinjiteitai?
“Do you believe? Do you want to keep believing?”
[Dutch:] Wie ben ik? Wie ben jij?
"Who am I? Who are you?"
[Greek:] ?
"Please save dad, and please save mum."
"Please God, if you exist, help me believe that the world is real, that I am real, and that everything is real. That we are more than just a coincidence."
"This world is what we can give."
"Speak to me. I won't ask you to save me. I just want you to speak to me."
"Hey...Did I apologize to you for...you know...I just want to say I'm sorry and...thank you. Oh! And only one more thing: Please, help me fly."
"Please God, take me away from here. I can't take anymore. They're always devouring me...I'm so lost. I'm so lost...God?"
[Japanese] "Kamisama-san, naze sensou? Naze shi? Naze kiga? Naniwodesuka? Omaeha naniwotameniiru? Sayonara."
“Dear God, why is there war? Why is there death? Why is there starvation? For what? What is the reason of your existence? Goodbye.”
[Greek] Ghia su, Thee. Anarotieme, ti imaste? Poso simantiki s' afto ton kosmo? Pu pigenoume?
"Hello, God. I wonder...what are we? What's our importance in this world? Where are we going to?"
"Uhh...Yeah, uhh... listen God...umm...I just want to say a really big thank-you on behalf of...uhh, everybody. And...thanks for getting the whole thing started and...for getting it off the ground, but...I think that this time, we have really screwed things up, and I am so, so sorry."
"I need you now. I need you."
Lyrics submitted by NeonTool, edited by Octavarium64
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