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It must have been hard; staying in line
knowing your influences insisted all the time
It must have been strange; living in blue
and see me shut down as though
it was an easy thing to do
But you could tell where I had been
by the way I held my gun
Trying to write anything
while being mocked by an off beat drum.
But I was not honest
I was not healthy
I was not honest, honest.
You did the right thing,
covered your scars
Challenged your faith
and closed your eyes driving cars
For all that they knew
you were safe home
But you went through hell
whenever you were left alone
But you could see where I had been
from the pictures that they took
I tried to look positive at things,
Faced myself but didn't look
that was not honest
I was not healthy
I am not honest, honest.
I wish you could see
yourself through my eyes
There's no need to cling
to unnecessary lies
The voice in your head
whose spirit you stole
left you for dead
but you dug the hole
And I can tell where you had been
from the marks around your wrists
The red water washed around your sins
but are you as pure as this?
No, you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest.
No, you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest.
knowing your influences insisted all the time
It must have been strange; living in blue
and see me shut down as though
it was an easy thing to do
by the way I held my gun
Trying to write anything
while being mocked by an off beat drum.
But I was not honest
I was not healthy
I was not honest, honest.
covered your scars
Challenged your faith
and closed your eyes driving cars
For all that they knew
you were safe home
But you went through hell
whenever you were left alone
from the pictures that they took
I tried to look positive at things,
Faced myself but didn't look
that was not honest
I was not healthy
I am not honest, honest.
yourself through my eyes
There's no need to cling
to unnecessary lies
The voice in your head
whose spirit you stole
left you for dead
but you dug the hole
from the marks around your wrists
The red water washed around your sins
but are you as pure as this?
No, you are not honest
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest.
You are not healthy
You are not honest, honest.
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,,songs like this make me wonder.. is honesty really what we want?..
I think:
"knowing your influences insisted all the time" must be "knowing your influences DID all the time"
She herself said that after her second (?) album she got really depressed and was under much pressure. So this line would refer to her idols/influences who she thinks never had these problems of lack of confidence. They always stayed in line and became successful.
All in all i thinks the song is not only about her eating disorder but her being so much under pressure in general.
Ah and "The red water washed around your sins" sounds more like "The red water washed away your sins"
I absolutly love this song. one of my lyrical dances this year is to this song. I love maria mena, she is absolutly amazing.
Maria Mena herself said this song is about her eating disorder she had a couple years ago... i really look up to her...her music helps me so much!
This song is so dark and sad, but with verses like "There's no need to cling to unnecessary lies" it is inspiring and encouraging as well. This is my favorite track on Apparently Unaffected.
I agree. It totally is my favorite one on Apparently Unaffected. In my opinion this song is about lying to yourself. I know Maria wrote it about her eating disorder, but I think it's about lying to yourself in every situation possible. This song is about finally opening your eyes and being honest to yourself. I guess that's the most important thing in life, keeping yourself honest.
Does no one notice that she stole the whole "shut down as though it was an easy thing to do" thing from Ray LaMontagne?
For starter, we don't know when each person wrote there song. Also, i've heard that phrase in songs from the 70's to now. It's a pretty common saying. She didn't steal anything.
For starter, we don't know when each person wrote there song. Also, i've heard that phrase in songs from the 70's to now. It's a pretty common saying. She didn't steal anything.