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Chapter I

oh, its february again anniversary of the time we spent staying up all night against eyelids i held you close until the end

(The Girl remembering a year later how her and this guy she really thought were meant to be, but broke up. He used to sneak in her room at night and they would lay together all night because the night was all they had. Then in the morning before her parents woke up he would sneak back out, but they would never want it to end)

remember our first kiss alone awkward as we slowly spent searching every inch of us of us

( She is remembering back on their first time, they had been with others before but this was special, it was different) to make this out, will i ever make this out

these days of breaking my heart's over another night i spend alone another night i spend alone

(The guy was not for everything she had to give. She pleaded to him not to be afraid. He knew that it was special but he continued to run for fear of being hurt. She couldn’t be normal around him she obsessed over wanting him to take her serious instead of valuing the things he could give her. )

these days of breaking my heart's over you left me on the floor (They used to have sex on her bedroom floor so her parents wouldn’t hear, when he left her, she was left there in that memory. Her heart hit the floor when she pushed him away.)

so you're coming by tonight i'm so tired of that line one day i will realize (He would call and say he was coming over but she wanted more- She wanted to make their dream world real. She started to hate herself and him because that’s all he would give. He would only give the night. In the night- they were perfect, everything she felt was real. ) you were never worth my time

until then i'll lie awake while you lie to yourself say the things i wanna hear to hear (After she ruins everything by going crazy, she cries to herself at night. She cannot sleep while he continues to lie to himself saying they aren’t ment to be- even though he knows they are. She just wants him to stop lying to himself and tell her he wants to be with her.)

to make this out, will i ever make this out

(She contemplates whether or not everything will turn out the way she wants it to, she doesn’t know if she can make it through the pain to get what she wants.)

these days of breaking my heart's over another night i spend alone another night i spend alone

(Her heart still hurts and she is still all alone)

these days of breaking my heart's over you left me on the floor (when he left she hit the floor)

just don't let go got my sights on everything can i hold your hand i won't hold your hand (when they first started talking he said he didn’t want anything serious, he was still getting over a girl that hurt him. She thought to herself I can do this I can wait. She asks to hold his hand. But the more she is around him the more she longs to be his one and only. She knows she cant just hold his hand she wants his heart. Something he cannot give)

just don't let go got my sights on everything can i hold your hand i won't hold your hand (There “relationship” goes up and down because she is trying to play it cool, but she is struggling because she wants him so much) just don't let go

i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away i guess this isn't right, cause you're walkin away (They start to be disconnected and things arent working out. She cant play it cool, but he cant give her everything yet. They get in a fight and they both just give up. He thinks he was right- that she really doesn’t love him. She is trying to make herself believe it isn’t right because he is just giving up. )

don't say goodbye with your back turned to me (they both say this as they look back at each other when the other isn’t looking. Like saying don’t just walk away like none of this ever mattered. He really wants to be with her and she wants to be with him but inside they question whether or not “love and fate” exists -This is a story click on smypathy to read the next part.

Chapter II

let's not forget we said we'd leave this alone and your regrets are killing me (A while later they try to start things back up again. He is reminding her that he doesn’t want anything serious now, and the guys shes been with since him has further made him think she really doesn’t care, but he doesn’t realize she was just desperately searching for something that feels the way her makes her feel. The random guys are her regrets, she wanted to wait for him and prove her feelings..but waiting just hurt too much, she didn’t want to believe what she felt with him was real)

flicker dim lights as i lay on your floor this feeling comes back again (As they start talking again she starts to remember the truth. She goes back to the nights spent on her bedroom floor, making love until morning, the feeling of perfection.)

so here's your photograph wait right here for your sympathy sympathy (She just gives up again, he isn’t ready still and she is mad. She yells to herself saying stop loving him he will never be ready MOVE ON!)

so here's your photograph wait right here for your sympathy sympathy (She metaphorically throws every photograph in her mind —every memory)

your dry lips are placed on mine as i touch your pale soft skin (She remembers every touch, every kiss)

this night is moments too long it's all you get, wait for me no sympathy (The night is too perfect, she hates the night. All he gives her is the night nothing more. He just asks her to wait for him.)

so here's your photograph wait right here for your sympathy sympathy ( She cant just wait. Wait for him to feel sorry for her and love her back. She gives up and leaves every memory behind)

so here's your photograph wait right here for your sympathy sympathy (gives back every memory and laughs at the idea of her waiting for him to love her out of sympathy, which she is starting to think is the only way he would ever love her) -This is a story click on farewell for the next part.