Deeper Down

An unfortunate journey
Through a bleak sea of loneliness
I carve through the waves of grief
In a black vastness of self doubt
I have never felt so alone
So pitiful and wretched and low
I'm tried by a terrible wind
The misery and the pains blow
Fill my vast sails of ruin
Steer me toward a bleak end
A horizon of purples and reds
The still waters of my welcome end
The clouds of grey come overhead
A storm will hunt me down
And rip the guts out of my body
That I would surely drown
The unforgiving wind searches
And lashes me like a whip
The self-pity overwhelms me
My heart sinks like a ship
Thrashing out at torment and pain
The maddened sea engulfs me
I let myself be swallowed up
The magnificent weight upon me
Deeper I go, deeper down
Didn't think it could get any blacker
The cold bites, the pressure builds
I think I no longer matter
Can't tell if my eyes are open or closed
The grieving waters swallow
The pain I'm in through my life of sin
The Devil will doubtless follow
Loneliness is agony
For those of you who know
A war of grief and sadness rages
Through mind, body and soul
When lovers die and friendships fade
When kin all lie forgotten
The gates of agony spew forth
Your memories, stinking and rotten
So deep now I feel so numb
I'm ravaged by utter loss
The guilt, The grief, The astounding pain
My body, they all will wash
I hope and I ne'er return to life
Oh, Christ just let me go
Let death devour my simple soul
Lest my misery grow
I quietly leave. A lonely sight
Relieved of all my guilt
To join a wall in deeper Hell
The Devil himself has built