Peeping Tommi

I feel this song is about a woman dissociating herself from sex and men. She'll go through the motions physically but she's left her body and she's watching lifelessly through distant eyes... almost like a voyeur. She's self protecting. She's torn by memories of another man- not good memories.

Just breathe/ She's willing... it's like a mantra to help through a panic attack/anxiety in sexual situations. Keep breathing, you are not being forced to to do this. Deep breaths, you are going to be okay.

A gorgeous song from Tori.

I think that Tori meant the song to be about how she can't get over the rape when she has sex and the guy she is with doesn't understand. So when she has sex maybe it is like she is watching the guy and someone else having sex.

To me though it is about watching a boy that you are obsessed with having sex with a different girl, and when you sleep with other guys you just keep thinking about him and seeing him in yr food. The guy that loves her is saying "you need to get over him" but she can't. The part about giving her gun a surprise is about shooting them.

She says "willing peeping tommi" and "I think of you, I think of that man all the while" which could refer to her wanting to be more comfortable with her sexuality. Although she IS a lot more comfortable with sex than most out there. It also seems to be about wanting the same passion as other couples/partners when they make love. Or just a song about spying. Any way, a fantastic song.

"She's willing. Just breathe.

Willing - one day I’ll be..."

The way she sings this line, I do think she is talking about the rape.

"Don't run away from me now" seems to be her coaching herself, telling herself that she doesn't need to disconnect from the sexual experience because she's safe. But no matter how much she tells herself that it's okay, all she can see is the rapist. She can't like the things she used to like because it's all been tainted by the man who raped her. "She's willing" seems to be addressing that some of her is okay with what's going on but is still a little tentative. "Time to let it go. Time to give my gun a nice surprise" (if the gun was the man in Me And A Gun) then the surprise would be that she's going to move forward, tell the memory of the rape to fuck off. By the end, she's realized she can do it, she's safe.

I found that tracking the progression of Me And A Gun to Peeping Tommi to Baker Baker to Never Seen the Blue, you get the story of a woman who was raped, began recovering, got scared, and then was shown that it's time for her to step back into her skin and live her life. I think it's kind of cool.